Lyrics if I don't ever get to just know, - Thatmanlala

I know a whole lot of people who folded on me
Got some demons that just can't stop holding on me
Got some bad things that just keep growing on me
And all these "doors" they say I got just keep closing on me

I know I'm broken
I feel like God had made a test dummy
And I'm the one he's chosen
The only thing that makes me happy is you living good

It seems I just can't win from losing
Deal with my anxiety, I'm not the one you're choosing
All these days just passing by and all I feel is stupid
Won't lying when you typed up in your bio that you're "ruthless"

Waiting for the day you finally let a nigga prove it
Never gained the mindset of "I gotta keep it moving"
And trust me I've been thought about the pulling old shenanigans
By taking this here phone and texting everyone you cool with

This time I have all to myself I won't be healing shit
Feels like I'm at square one with these illnesses I'm dealing with
Haven't been so healthy, you should know I don't be eating shit
My mind's the only thing that's getting fed like "who you linking with?"

I tried "manifesting", nothing happened, done believing shit
Tell all of my brothers "never give up", I be preaching shit
Never take the lessons that I learn, I just be teaching shit
If anything I need to learn a way to stop this bleeding, shit I

Talked to your mama, man that shit was therapeutic
She told me her and cuz back in Atlanta like my music
We spoke about you briefly, said she "wanted us together"
She also said that I should "go and see you when i'm better", yeah

Unlike that one time, I think we should speak in private
I went to see your sister, saw my whip, she got excited
Praying that you're present by the time a nigga blow up
If I set us up a dinner, could I count on you to show up? Cause

I know a whole lot of people who folded on me
Got some demons that just can't stop holding on me
Got some bad things that just keep growing on me
And all these "doors" they say I got just keep closing on me

I know I'm broken
I feel like God had made a test dummy
And I'm the one he's chosen
The only thing that makes me happy is you living good

I know a whole lot of people who folded on me
Got some demons that just can't stop holding on me
Got some bad things that just keep growing on me
And all these "doors" they say I got just keep closing on me

I know I'm broken
I feel like God had made a test dummy
And I'm the one he's chosen
The only thing that makes me happy is you living good

And all those times I see you smile it shows (You're living good)
And I see growth up in your style, it shows (Cause you're living good)
And all those times I see you smile it shows (You're living good)
And I see growth up in your style, it shows (Cause you're living good)