Lyrics Bleeding in the Snow - The Plague

I've tried and tried but I can't find a comfort for the pain
I've tried to use the chemicals to wash it all away
Round and round when I come down and everything's the same
I can't defeat the cycle, I can't defeat the shame
I've become the only one who tears apart my dreams
Can't control the fear, I'll have to flee the scene
Imitate a damaged world, never feel the pain
Blow myself away

When will I let go of bleeding in the snow?
Will I let go?
It's all I've ever known
I'm terrified I'll never be who I'm meant to be
Who I'm meant to be

Kill myself once again just 'cause I'm afraid
Why am I living a lie, a charade?
Again I feel the grief inside
Never ending suicide
Why am I alive?

When will I let go of bleeding in the snow?
Will I let go?
It's all I've ever known
I'm terrified I'll never be who I'm meant to be
Who I'm meant to be

I convince myself I'm strong
'Til the feelings overwhelm
I lie to my knees
Admitting I am weak
Oh god, please set me free somehow

When will I let go of bleeding in the snow?
Will I let go?
It's all I've ever known
I'm terrified I'll never be who I'm meant to be
Who I'm meant to be
To be
Who I'm meant to be
To be