Lyrics Insecurity - Therapy?

There I ___ my eyes
I've been sleeping lights
Focused on my negative
Drinking every night
Insecurity, insecurity
I cannot burn all these days
Everything I know hanging away
Little anxiety
They act like my friends
I'm living
I just bloom inside
Thoughts of memories
Insecurity, insecurity
I cannot burn all these days
Everything I know hanging away
Instrumental
I based my hope and value
On all the wrong days
But everything be little
And nothing has a taste
It hasn't changed in decays
Excuses never left
I woke up screaming
With the devil on my chest
Insecurity, insecurity
Insecurity, insecurity
I cannot burn all these days
Everything I know hanging away