Lyrics I Keep Trying - Tlap

I keep trying
I keep trying
You don't really care when I'm away, you think I'm lying
I keep trying

I thought you were the best for me
But turns out I don't mean shit to you
How many times do you need the truth
How many times you fake, a few
You don't wanna talk about it, leave it in the past
But I can't get myself to choose
End it now or suffer later
They won't put out my burning fuse
I keep trying
I keep trying
You don't care what happens when I'm gone, you think I'm lying
Never thought about a life without you, perfect timing
You never thought I'd go thru with it bitch, but now I'm trying

I gave you some years and I still don't got a head
You been runnin' thru it like it's yours instead
You got a hotel room I think that he was in your bed
Told me that I'm crazy but you wouldn't text me back
Knew I should've listen to my friends but I was so scared
Pour my heart into my phone and then I watch my phone stare
I would taste a bullet if it's my turn playing truth or dare
It don't matter how much that I gave her, she don't want me there
I turned down so many bitches for you, but you don't care
Block it out and run away, I'll hit that bitch with solar flare
Better never try to get me back because there's no repair
Should've known that you the same as all the rest, don't play it fair
I wanna be alone, so
I'll pay the price
You wanna see me now, that
You like your life
Tried to give you more
Than you had before
You wanna give it back, but
Now I'm not alive

I keep trying
I keep trying
You don't really care when I'm away, you think I'm lying
Never thought about a life without you, perfect timing
You never thought I'd go thru with it bitch, but now I'm trying
I keep trying
I keep trying
You don't care what happens when I'm gone, you think I'm lying
Never thought about a life without you, perfect timing
You never thought I'd go thru with it bitch, but now I'm trying

I hope you sleepin' well, knowing that I'm wide awake
I keep checking your page, but it never seems to change
Calling you I'm screamin' and you still won't make a face
I know you let me go way before our trip in May
But I'm still glad that we went anyways
I wish I could go back to feeling safest in your space
But I'm miserable, I'm all alone, I'm m i a
Please just let me go, I'm sick of waking everyday
I can't keep going on, I need help
She won't like this song, but I'll be in hell
Death not won't be long, just wait here
She wouldn't listen to my broken record with three ears
Gave a lot of love, a lot of time for her to stand clear
I can't find the strength to bring it up, that's why the booth's here
I know this isn't what I want from love, this shit is d tier
I wish that I never opened up and left the key near

I thought you were the best for me
But turns out I don't mean shit to you
How many times do you need the truth
How many times you fake, a few
You don't wanna talk about it, leave it in the past
But I can't get myself to choose
End it now or suffer later
They won't put out my burning fuse
I keep trying
I keep trying
You don't care what happens when I'm gone, you think I'm lying
Never thought about a life without you, perfect timing
You never thought I'd go thru with it bitch, but now I'm trying