Lyrics Disposable Year - Topiary Creatures

Call it heavenly father issues
Looking for meaning here
I'm fixated on a rear view screen
Everyone's watching TV
But who's to decipher that disposable year?
Four zip codes and dead peonies
I'm not attached, nor them to me
I just

Study its sting
I'm never working towards something
It's just unravelling a funeral

And I wanted you to hurt me more
Prove the meaning here
Oh the oddity of another girl's breath
I got scared at how little I flinched
Peace is just reestablishment
There's only transient hope
Now I've just got apathy towards you and your friends
With your perfect skin and tangible problems
I'll just

Study its sting
I'm never working towards something
It's just unravelling a funeral

They say you'll go to great lengths
For the thing that you love
But my efforts are immeasurable
For nothing at all