Lyrics shards of glass - Trechor Boy , nova garden

In my suicide note I wrote
That if any motherfuckers want smoke I'd choke
I stay fucked up
I'm so hung up
On the fact I ain't shit
But a fuck up
All my friends have overdosed
Even though I ain't there yet, bitch I'm close
In the meantime
I'll stay locked in my room
Away from sunshine

I take cover in a substance
I hate the taste
Down it like its nothing
How many hits can I lick before I tap out?
How many drinks can I sip before I black out?
Imma test my limit for the last time
Please stay with me on the hotline
I'll call u back when I feel alright
But tomorrow never comes
A life is finite

I can't stop takin' hella pills
But I'm not addicted
I just do it for the thrill
Acid tabs sitting on my tongue
But don't worry 'bout a thing
I just do it for fun
Glassed eyes in the mirror
Lookin' at myself
Thinkin' 'bout why the fuck I do this to my health
Paranoia got me grabbin' shrooms off my shelf
Try to stop me
I cant let you bitch
So go to hell

I feel nothing
To feel something
But im a fucking slave to the chemicals
I've been
Straight huffing
I wake up in panic attacks from my dreams so
Take my mind away
My eyes fell down the drain
These tear drops act as rain
Try to flush away, rinse away my pain

I take cover in a substance
I hate the taste
Down it like its nothing
How many hits can I lick before I tap out?
How many
Drinks can I sip before I black out?
Imma test my limit for the last time
Please stay with me on the hotline
I'll call u back when I feel alright
But tomorrow never comes
A life is finite