Lyrics Fiji - Trevor Koin

I wanna be out on a beach, somewhere out in Fiji
Blind in the heart yeah I can't see, demons trying to reach me
Shawtie said that I can't leave, cause she say she need me
But I'm never happy, I'm not gonna lie, I been thinking about suicide
Sad and depressed
Fact of the matter is I haven't been my best
Other news is that I haven't been sleeping well
Waking up from nightmares, sweating in my bed
And, I had a dream that I fell in love
I woke up punching the air cause I wasn't next to her
She was so perfect, I was ready to make love songs for her
I was like damn finally, we ain't going back to hurt
But I guess that we're really stuck in the rut
Stuck in the mud
I was gon' switch songs from the sadness
And talk about love
I guess that's not supposed to happen
The devil's probably watching and laughing

It's like I'm stuck to this
Laughing, my life's amusing
I'm
The one losing all my energy
And I'm
Losing more than just my sanity
I can't
Recall happy memories
It's like I'm dead to me
I can't relate to healing
Stop
Telling me to find happiness
I can't
I tried that shit desperately
And I'm
On the road to the death of me

Everyday we get closer to death, but I'm running
And I got a fear of death, I don't want it
So my misery loop and all
I need Tylenol
This is sickening I just wanna get through it that's all

Mad as hell
Sad as well
My mind's like one of them sad motels
I'm inside and through the blinds I only see red
Running out of cares
But that's to say I had em to start
Feel like Push baby, cause it's me and my broken heart
Feel like me and reality are split apart

I'ma end up killing me, eventually
And I'm scared that I won't even get to rest in peace
Cause I feel like I lost my soul, a while ago
I look around and faces start to laugh at me
These things just started happening, these things just started happening
Uhuh, these things just started happening