Lyrics Hate on Me - Tt17

I stay up thinkin', thoughts run through my head
Would y'all even care if I woke up dead?
If I did, who would you hate instead?
No one, get that through your head

Now, don't you pity, it don't even matter
Talkin' to Mom, asked me "What's the matter?"
I'd just keep it closed, my mouth wouldn't move
But now I'm pourin', I ain't got nothin' to lose
I'll pour it all out, all my emotions
My life ain't a joke, but y'all think that I'm jokin'
You'll get outspoken
I sound like a record that's broken (record that's broken)
Filler rap? I don't think that worked for me
I know that I can't write these perfectly
Aye, remember those songs I dropped in the summer?
This is the number one song that I'll drop
I ain't gonna stop, 'till I'm at the top
Like it or not? I'll still shoot my shot
I'm feelin' hot
"When's the deal comin'?" I don't even know
Waitin' 'till I could turn up a show
"Take off the black hat and the hoodie, you ain't NF"
Yeah, I know, I know who I am, scratch that I don't
I am still lookin', lookin' for me, look for TT
A wanted sign if that's what I need
Look at these bars, I spit it with ease (spit it with ease)
Had a few shows, no one was there
Had a few shows, nobody cares
Think I found love, love in the air
I swear y'all thinkin' I'm goin' nowhere
"Look at the white dude, look at him go"
"Look at the dude who could hold down a show"
"Look at them all, look at his bros"
"Why you depressed?" I don't know (I don't know)

I stay up thinkin', thoughts run through my head
Would y'all even care if I woke up dead?
If I did, who would you hate instead?
No one, get that through your head

Put the hate on me, make me depressed
Music's where I come to get it all off my chest
But I'm still lovin' life, I wouldn't change it
Only thing I want is for someone to play this
Get a few streams, get 'em to notice me
Get 'em to read my bars, like it's poetry
I wanna blow up, to prove you all wrong
But that don't matter, I'm still killin' songs
Still killin' tracks, 18 racks
I've hated my life, you couldn't pay me to go back
But now that's all I write about
Improving, y'all can hold your doubts
Whether it's writing with Victor, songs how I miss her
4 songs for a girl, I dissed her
I'm one of a kind, y'all must be blind
Lemme remind y'all one more time (one more time)

I stay up thinkin', thoughts run through my head
Would y'all even care if I woke up dead?

I've come a long way, where I once was
"Leave right now, go kill yourself for us"
"When you gonna do it? You plan to tell?"
Well, I'm alive, and I'm standin' well
Some of the nights, I get a night
I stay up and write, into the night
But Ima keep pushin', I'm gonna fight
For a spot in the game, doin' it right
I'm lost in my life, I need someone to find me
I'm depending on music, but no one's behind me
Music's my life, ain't no minimum wage
I'll do it for free, just gimme a stage
Gimme a mic, gimme a crowd
Mom, I swear I'll make you proud
We gon' live good, I'll bring in the bread
I'm sick of the hate, it ain't all in my head
I was born to be different, born to stand out
Born to be known, rap for a crowd
It only takes one, they'll scream my name loud
Just give me a chance, I'll show you what I'm about
This is just the beginning, T got a new start
I write all of my songs straight from the heart
I'm sick of hearin' that I only got bars
I married the game, 'till death do us part
I wanna be in it, the way is crazy
Get all depressed so people could play me
I don't get the streams, but I'll get the fame
Hate me now, you gon' know my name (name)

I stay up thinkin', thoughts run through my head
Would y'all even care if I woke up dead?
If I did, who would you hate instead?
No one, get that through your head

I'm writing all day, I can't find a beat
I'm venting and they say "It's heat"
I want them to understand, that's the objective
Impossible, you don't see from my perspective
I feel objected to write, it's a therapy session
What am I doing in life? I once had depression
I got somethin' to prove, nothin' to lose
Cuz I don't got anything, except confidence
The same flow, new bars out here
2020 bout ta be my year
Better than these fakes out here
I wanna be great, but there's somethin' in the way
I need a drop my ego, and grind every day
Cuz if I can't lose it, the haters will stay
I'm still the most hated to this day (day)

I stay up thinkin', thoughts run through my head
Would y'all even care if I woke up dead?
If I did, who would you hate instead?
No one, get that through your head