Lyrics My Own Watch - Turkish Executioner

Made it on my own watch
On my own terms

Everytime they tore me apart stitched my shit
Back together Everytime I got knocked down
Got back up

They said a lot about me had my own
Turn there back on me

She told me it was mine then fucked the same
Guy again when I saw you I felt something

Gave you my all there were times I had
Slurred my lines Never fell off the grid

Busters steady trynna knock you off

The spotlight alone or not I won't
Stop at the dead end can you feel
My pain it courses threw my veins

I guess it's true no pain no gain
Made it on my own watch
On my own terms

Everytime they tore me apart stitched my shit
Back together Everytime I got knocked down
Got back up

You broke me in two fuck that 3
Heard a lot of shit that hurt

They don't wanna pass me the torch they'd
Rather see me up on the porch where the
Hell is scott storch when you need him

I don't gotta say a lot
Imma let the music talk they said
A lot until I chalked up the Duce

My pain Is too great for you to handle go
Back to your side piece

Tried to dismantle me most people
Party on Friday nights I trap myself in
The basement my own body and mind

Is my enemy my girl done cheated on me
Not once twice 3 fuck that
life played me like a racket Ball

My emotions are dead opposition
Tried to shut me down cant break
Something that's already broken

Can't break something that's broken
Everyday another problem
Time to solve them

problems Involve me for some reason
Their ain't no explanation read these boys

The citation as a youngin I felt neglected
They told me I need to lose a few pounds

So I deflated now there looking at my gift
Like deflate them numbers Im just frustrated

I'm really just frustrated

Made it on my own watch on my own terms
Everytime they tore me apart stitched my
Shit back together

Everytime I got knocked down got back up

It feels like I've got nothing left to lose
The cycle of pain just keeps repeating
It's self I'm not no sweet bitchI was in the

Backseat when we took the fall
Made it from the back streets I'm use

To them trying to compete everything
It Just gets me mad had to dump that

Got pregnant and tried to say
It was mine wanted to play me
Like a dummy that shit was really
Scummy

I can't reverse
What happened HAPPENED I've let everyone
KNow I'm insecure time to change spots

I've grown use to being alone I hold
Myself ransom I deal with my issues
With violence I stay up all night screaming

Praying one day I find myself I've grown
Tired of pushing my loved ones away

They told me I changed it's hard to accept
It but I agree I'm just hurting Inside I done

Fucked up so many times it feels like
Even breathing is a crime I'm just
Over this shit

Questions objectives achievements
I have goals I want to reach I've reached

My breaking point my defenses won't
Be breached the pain inside is like

A swirling storm had a couple of
People I called friends when shit

Hit the fan they all packed up and left
The pain is coming out my chest

Messed up the little hope i had to
Stay motivated never got to meet
My grandad never got to live

My childhood should that make me
Bitter if I could I'd go back and
Try again to be a better man

But I ran like a coward ran till
There was nothing left the pills

Spilled all over the counter guess
I have to many prescriptions

Have a addiction on speaking
On things I probably shouldn't be

Speaking on I just want some answers