Lyrics magic spellz - Twiztid

What I feel lately is 50 shades of hate me
And I can't seem to break free
I don't like what I'm feelin' maybe
My self-medicating
At the point of breaking
I'm not sure if you're relating
I just need to feel like I'm the one worth saving

You lift me up in times when I wanna die
Intoxicated by your magic spellz you weave all the time
You bring me down every time I feel alive
I'm trying, I'm living I'm dying this minute

You bring me up and take me down
Life smacks the face I hold my ground
Another day to sing this song aloud
I wonder can they hear me screaming
Switch it now, change the day and take whatever comes my way I gotta
Say that this magical spell is heaven or hell when it
Plays it can lighten or darken up your day push it away

You lift me up in times when I wanna die
Intoxicated by your magic spellz you weave all the time
You bring me down every time I feel alive
I'm trying, I'm living I'm dying this minute

I try to live but they want me to cease to be
I'm shedding skin cutting teeth and becoming me...

Finger pointed shaming an everybody blaming
What if I leave escaping
This I know it'll be here waiting
Anticipating
My downfall on the daily
But you give all that you gave me
And it saved me and it saved me and it saved me

You lift me up in times when I wanna die
Intoxicated by your magic spellz you weave all the time
You bring me down every time I feel alive
I'm trying, I'm living I'm dying this minute