Lyrics I Gave My All - Whitney Peyton

You know kinda like you've been going in circles and every road you take leads you back to the same place so the faster you go, the faster you find yourself back at the beginning. Listen.

Panic attacks, I had 9 yesterday.
I can't eat, I take a bite and throw the rest away.
I can't write these other lyrics that my stress conveys, I'm yelling at the top of my lungs letting it resonate.
My present state is really anything but stable, I'm grateful for any sanity that's left to help me stay cool.
Calm and collected, pad and pencil on the table caus I'm writing you this letter and I'm already on page 2.
Though I know you'll rip it up when you recieve it, kinda like you did my heart, that's the reason it's barely beating.
Hope you read this caus I really need someone that's here believing.
We were tighter than my jeans and now it seems we're rarely speaking.

But I keep on keeping on as the one that they've been sleeping on.
Been on my feet so long that's why you see my sneakers worn.
Despite the potholes, obstacles and peeping horns.
Get used to me, garantuee you'll never see me gone.

I travelled down this road so many times that I don't know, why I keep coming here and will I ever find my way home.
I gave my all
I gave my all
Been moving all this time, I'm still going round in circles always searching for the finish line.

So now I'm chilling here just staring at my phone.
I'm hoping that you'll call me yet I'm swearing that you won't.
I'm looking round the room to find something I haven't thrown, in the fireplace, along with every photo that i own of you.
Caus I don't like the way you mock me in the images
(The images)
It's kinda toasty in the fire now isn't it?
I know I'm talking to a picture like an idiot but the fact that you don't answer back is a little inconsiderate.

When I was a little kid my teacher said I fidgeted.
In my chair I wouldn't sit still for just one minute and nothing.
Sheesh I'm admitting it, I never was the prettiest.
I never was the fastest or the strongest or the wittiest.
Countless time I went and trusted all the wrong people.
I like to think it's caus I see good in others and not evil.
But when I'm down and out the same ones stop even caring 'bout my ass.
The best is what they not seeing.

I travelled down this road so many times that I don't know, why I keep coming here and will I ever find my way home.
I gave my all
I gave my all
Been moving all this time, I'm still going round in circles always searching for the finish line.

Wasn't I inside?
How'd I wind up in the forest?
I must've lost it, could be miles from my appartment.
I always end up in a million places facing darkness.
My heart is ready charging but my head is yelling cautious.
Can't remember how I got here.
Come on Whitney, think.
I'm not on any drugs unless they slipped them in my drink.
I left my medication in the kitchen by the sink.
This world I'm in can only be existing in a dream.
But I'm free to ruin it.
Maybe I'm not living, I must've died and be inside the afterlife I'm given.
I'm trying every trail but they don't lead me nowhere different.
Maybe fate is just a product of our own decisions.

But I keep on keeping on as the one that they've been sleeping on.
Been on my feet so long that's why you see my sneakers worn.
Despite the potholes, obstacles and peeping horns.
Get used to me, garantuee you'll never see me gone.

I travelled down this road so many times that I don't know, why I keep coming here and will I ever find my way home.
I gave my all
I gave my all
Been moving all this time, I'm still going round in circles always searching for the finish line.