Lyrics Sins Of The Father - X-Raided

Everything was picture perfect on the surface
I Had a beautiful mother, always at my father's service
A Dutiful trophy child, I was born to serve a purpose
I'm Certain we'll have to reckon with the darkness
That was lurkin' underneath
What would I come to be?
I did to my little brother what father had done to me
My mother was unbothered
Pretend that she doesn't see
Blinded by loyalty, diamonds, royalty, luxuries
Spoiled by the spoils of richness
Made her complicit
Family members could sense it themselves when they came to visit
The house developed a tension
Palpable and persistent
It mounted, intensified
No one wanted to mention exactly what it's about
I finally made a decision
To try to talk to my mother
She didn't want to listen
Didn't want to believe the actions my dad was taking
She told me to "stop it and that I was exaggerating"
That was exasperating

A bell rung can't be unrung
Felt like I was under a spell
When I was young
How can I dispel the
Monster I've become?
The sins of the father were visited on the sons
A bell rung can't be unrung
Felt like I was under a spell
When I was young
How can I dispel the
Monster I've become?
The sins of the father were visited on the sons

She told me my dad had to punish me when I do things wrong
I couldn't help but think she knew all along
I stood there silently as she told me that he loved me
I felt like a leper
No effort to hold or hug me
Why respond violently?
Allow me to address it
Ever since the age of Six
I no longer felt protected
My dad began to touch me
Massage me and caress me
He made me watch pornography
To groom me and undress me
He began to subject me to knowledge of good and evil
He taught me to be deceitful
Not to see the good in people
By the time I went to college
He'd corrupted my vision and my little brother
Became the subject of his attention
One day he made an admission
The man who molested me
Had molested him
And everything suspected of me
I then confessed to him
And everything that happened to me
It had happened to him
The one thing I can guarantee
It won't happen again because

A bell rung can't be unrung
Felt like I was under a spell
When I was young
How can I dispel the
Monster I've become?
The sins of the father were visited on the sons
A bell rung can't be unrung
Felt like I was under a
Spell when I was young
How can I dispel the
Monster I've become?
The sins of the father were visited on the sons