Lyrics Defense, The Story - Xavier Drysdale

I grew up looking at the greats I was in over my head you could see that on my face
But that didn't matter didn't care about the hate wasn't tryna get in first I was tryna stay in the race
Looking at the older kids seeing that they play at a level that I wasn't at made me want to say that
I'm bigger than I was but maybe that was fake maybe that was God telling me I need a break
But I don't take breaks no time for a wait list summer 'fourteen wasn't roses or some bracelets
Nah I shed sweat and some blood on the pavement I saw the guys slack that was digging at my patience
But I needed to impress so I kept that on my chest i'm good at shrugging off in that I was blessed
Fast forward now the whole crew going strong if only young me could look at what's going on

Now my guard down flip the switch now its problems people start flacking like its leaves in the autumn
I've seen my brother I grew up with on the bottom get ripped from me left me shaking like its Harlem
No lie it was dazed developed cold blood look in my eyes no loyalty what is up
You gon stab me oh and now you bluff how dare you bring me here just so you can set me up
But at the same time you stuck in the cycle too your daddy left you early back when you were two
You're throwing temper tantrums when your old enough to move and by the time you're teen
Your guard is built huge

High school cliques on rotation cuz they too have problems so they just as likely to bounce you
People come and go leave bad taste then come and go then next thing you know its bad news
People stab you you stab just paying dues the insecurity showing out like some shoes
Your semper heating up snapping whole crews getting used to cutting cuz they all do it to you
Now I chill with you cuz I notice that you're cool before you know it now i'm looking up to you
Then you stab me cuz you aint know what else to do the cycle continues we grow up and
You hate me and I hate you

I can't help but ask is this really it we supposed to be up not living like this
Loyalty zip code we need that number one one one zero
We can disagree but the game is too short to be fighting with the team though
We're supposed to fight the enemy we can't walk if we run each others energy
There's no one answer I can say no master plan but I hope that you know now I understand
I understand