Lyrics Paralyzed - Xeal

Yeah, yeah
Whoa (We get it we gotta go)
Yeah, yeah, whoa
Most nights I wake up and I'm paralyzed 'cause
My brain don't know time, I'm sleep-deprived
Can't think straight, I'm not fully awake
Man I never really am awake, perpetually baked
I'm mentally drained, my consciousness frayed
Down in self-placed hate as I'm
Drowned in self-mixed drinks
Drunk, high, I can't even see out of my eyes
Lie, tryna find the truth of what's this life
Keep out emotion, this colder than ice
Warmin' up more than a fire
Morally polarized
Don't know why I think I'm fine or try to hide
Some nights I just wanna die in my sleep
Hopin' to run from the things that bother me
Thoughts weigh and I'm chained to the
Bottom of a bottomless lake
And left to contemplate
Paralyzed in fear, you stuck up like a deer
In the headlights of less than ideal life
Complacent and unclear about why
What can I change
How can I break out this ring
And take back the reins
Or build up my brain

Weakness was weed, fuckin' fuel had me fallin' in
Just a few weeks in this college shit, thinkin' I'ma call it quits
Not 'cause it's hard, this shit just ain't callin' me
The path that I need ain't the type of the employee
Focused energy forward, off my balance for a bit
We had lost the team so it seems that I'm all I get
Few and far between have any time for me, better things
I need a void to create and conceive, like
Few passes in, had to scrap my whole 8, 16s
Pressure packed down on the dome layin' down in the Challenger deep
Still doin' a thing or two, thinking 'til three or noon
Then I'll consider sleep, slice up a bunch of beats, cut
Through a good few of the goals, I scraped off the mold
Polished my person, he turned on the tap
Got my growin' lil pile of green, damn

Woah, woah, woah, woah, woah
Shut the fuck up, out my face
Pavin' my own way straight up to the grave (Yeah)
Woah, woah, woah
Woah, woah, woah, woah
I ain't got no time for that shit you been sprayin'
Pavin' over craters, over overrated maidens
I'm sayin' god damn it man I'm (Faded)
Woah, woah, woah

Lorazepam, Alprazolam, I'm done, I hate 'em
I ain't with my dome, it's numb and stuck
Had me feelin' dumb as fuck
Seven, seven, seven sober man for seven months, I had a plan
Damn I been off the grams for a while
Look I gotta reacclimate to function before any
Thought about fuckin' up my bank again
Swapped out the cans they were tin
The highs had been gritty like sand
Your carts are a sham, my man
Ain't fuck wit' your scams, no ma'am
This new had me sit back and float off the land
I stand up for shrooms and tan, like countin' me in
Ain't pickin' part grams, no chance
Tickin' time bomb, blowin' down my song
Riddlin' rhymes, raw, Did all this with a mask on
Little shy dog, get a vise like a red ball
Down the stairs, by itself, like a red ball
Something else up there with the red ball
Wake up in a cold sweat, flip the lights on
Givin' it in, thoughts, chilling mist pass my song
Gone

Woah, woah, woah, woah
Shut the fuck up, out my face
Pavin' my own way straight up to the grave (Yeah)
Woah, woah, woah, woah
I ain't got no time for that shit you been sprayin'
Pavin' over craters, over overrated maidens
I'm sayin' god damn it man I'm (Faded)

Woah, woah, woah
Out of a wormhole of time comes a product I admire
A sculpture formed from a block of sound
As I said before, I wake up paralyzed
For the music consumes me and I exhume it, as Ouroboros performs
Yet through the restless nights and mild hallucinations
A chorus forms
The words and chords transformed from my brain to keys
I've yet to become bored, I'm content with my state as an artist, Xeal
Paralyzed and petrified (Petrified)
Fear comes to mind (Fear)
Open third eye (Seer)
Okay, bye