Lyrics Chels - Yung Prophet

Fuck
I'm used to this pain and I'm losing myself
Where should I go when there's nobody else
How should I feel when I'm put on the shelf
When I tried to do good but you put me through hell
I question myself like I'm fucked in my brain
Cuz you made me believe that I'm goin insane
Tryna cover your faults and your lies and project them on me
Cuz your guilty and can't take the blame
Yet you lied to my face over and over again
Told me those fuckers were only your friends
I'm humiliated and it's your creation
You were in my bed yet you were talking to him
My sister caught you and explained it to me
No wonder the two of you bitches had beef
You both had a rep of the constant deceit
And hoes will be hoes so no need to compete
I gave you conditions don't fuck with my trust
We know how that shit lasted up to a month
It's sad that your loyalty is only a front
So you get what you want while you fuck with my gut
And I'm sick to my stomach because of that shit
I dealt with the screaming and immature fits
Then I tried to heal you and gave you a life
Without asking for nothing and this what I get
And I understand we ain't mentally straight
But that's no damn excuse to keep driving the stake in my back
Cuz you know I was there for you always
And I pulled you closer but you pushed away
You'd make me feel bad for my mental conditions
From trust issues given from those other bitches
I thought you were different
You made your decision
And I should've listened but now I'm imprisoned

Now fuck what you do
Now fuck what you say
To get where you are you would lie to my face
You're telling your family and friends all these lies
Cuz you can't take the guilt and that shit ain't okay
And it kills me inside you still wanted your ex
Cuz he cheated and broke you then made you depressed
But I put you first and I stuck out my neck
And I wasted my time trying to clean up his mess
Now look what it got me
I'm lonely as hell
While you fuck other dudes you don't know very well
And I hate it I dwell and I dwell in my head
I'm a ghost in the shell but I rather be dead
Cuz you fucked with my trust then you trade me for lust
And you wonder why I left your ass in the dust
Then you blame me for leaving
Kept giving me reasons to leave behind everything with you I loved

From the moment we parted till now I have cried
And I'm tryna to keep every emotion inside
But you shredded my pride then you twisted the knife
And it wasn't soon after my fucking dog died
No disrespect I wish you the best
Tryna find who you are through the drugs and the sex
I will heal and keep pushing persistent, no less
When I rise as a person you'll still be a mess
I'm finding my peace from the pain in my soul
Reconnecting with the me you controlled
You may be gone I was always alone
And you left me for dead with this cratering hole
I'm putting me first cuz it's what I deserve
And I'll bury your memory deep in the dirt
The most valuable lessons come with the most hurt
And I'll take them all with me the day I leave earth
Fuck

Your grandfather would be proud
God rest his soul