Lyrics oblivion - bottom surgery

Hey it's me again
Another track already
Do you miss me when I'm gone?
I've felt so sick, i've been spiraling

I heard havyn's a druggie
I heard she fucked off to rehab
I heard she's getting an orchie
I heard she's a failure and relapsed

I told my sister I missed her
I told my friends I'm withdrawing
I told my psych i'm on pills
I dream of fields that are sprawling

I sat of the floor
I put my hands on the oven
I tried to wake from the nightmare
I saw the void without valium

I had a vision
Of what my life would be like
Pretty pictures
Laugh with friends all night

I spent the last month
Choking back my tongue
And I cried to god
I said

This is oblivion

Peel my skin off
Tear my shit off

I don't think that i'm strong enough
To protect the ones i love