Lyrics Mystery - despair

I need to stop this, got no options
Body filled up with the toxins
I need to drop this, clear my conscience
All this pain it feels so constant

Do you still think of me, or am i in a dream
How can i feel so free
Love so dirty, you make me clean

Suppress my memories
The things i do, they worry me
Respect my boundaries
How i feel it's a mystery...

I need to stop this, got no options
Body filled up with the toxins
I need to drop this, clear my conscience
All this pain it feels so constant

Do you still think of me, or am i in a dream
How can i feel so free
Love so dirty, you make me clean

Love so dirty, you make me clean