Lyrics Stuck in Memories - hammy

Ever since you left me, my brain has been against me
Wish I could erase all of the memories
If I left the world tonight, would you even miss me?
Imma turn up missing

Imma go M.I.A, Imma turn up missing
Dissapear from everything, now I′m really distant
Born into this system, my brain is like a prison

Wish I could escape it, the darkness in my vision
The demons in my orbit, they take all my light source
Nothing left to fight for, I cry until my eyes sore
Smoke until I'm so high, don′t feel like a life form
Egodeath the 3rd time, died again I'm reborn

They tell me be happy, just be glad it happened
My brain is fucking cracking from chemical reactions
I know that I'm fucked up the chemicals imbalanced
Probably from the acid, I feel like I′m Alice

I feel like a science experiment in my mind
Take myself far away and leave it all behind
Tell me Imma make it, but I know I′m wasting time
Death is like a ride, take a ticket wait in line

I feel like a science experiment in my mind
Take myself far away and leave it all behind
Tell me Imma make it, but I know I'm wasting time
Death is like a ride, take a ticket wait in line

Take a ticket wait in line
Death is like a ride, take a ticket wait in line
Take a ticket wait in line
Death is like a ride, take a ticket wait in line

I feel like a science experiment in my mind
Take myself far away and leave it all behind
Tell me Imma make it, but I know I′m wasting time
Death is like a ride, take a ticket wait in line

I feel like I'm useless more than fucking ever
Ask me when I′m happy, probably fucking never
I don't wanna feel the pain, but I′m stuck in memories
Remember all the awful things you would fucking say to me
Damaged me emotionally, socially, and physically
Left me all alone to rot in my own misery

Now I'm just a husk of who I once was
Laying on my bed I know I am not enough
Drown in my tears, and drown in the smoke
My life is a nightmare, I hope I overdose
I love to get numb, I can't fucking help it
Mama I′m sorry, I know that I′m selfish

Selfish, mama I'm sorry, I know that I′m selfish
Also I'm useless, and helpless, my dreams are all fading
I′m living my life like a deathwish