Lyrics no shot... - hare kill

I've been disillusioned too long
See what you make of things when every man looks through your eyes
It's a current you can't fight
A greying garden with debris and its centre a hivemind
Don't keep me waiting too long
I wander freely as the shackles can stretch 'fore they rewind
'Cause there's a drawback to insight
Perceiving every outcome of a regular meet
See how soft we are
I know what I've done
I've read about matters worse than this
I'm over it, I'm self-sufficient
All I ever was
A fragment propped up on words and respect
But nothing less than my ambitions
Took no shot on time
Too many times to not know that I was wrong
My coveting for a connection
"And I know what I've done"
You haven't seen the worst of this
But I've realised all of my issues
I made a habit out of self-conscious extravagance
I have guilt every day from all the lies I need to be myself
And I, I made a habit out of self-conscious extravagance
I have guilt every day from all the lies I need to be myself
Don't keep me waiting too long
I wander freely but I know that I'm locked in my cell
Oh, I never drew back the blind
Trying to guarantee outcomes of these regular meets
Oh, dont keep me waiting too long
I picked my poison three years ago and I can't go back
Oh, I need to let myself cry
I'll make sure everyone's happy and I won't let you grieve
But do you think I really wanted this?
Caught in a mirror trapped between me and my ugliness
Do you approve? Everyone's scared to say the obvious
What they assume keeping me anxious but I'll never ask
Making the move, please make the move