Lyrics Addicted - ilylost

I've been dealing with addictions
So much going through my head but I don't know what I'm missing
Everybody always saying I'm just bitching
But I'm really not
I'm just tryna get rid of all these thoughts
Every single day I'm sitting on my bed
With a new slit on my wrist
Cause I can't get out my head
Now I'm wishing I just was dead
Suck up taking meds
Im wishing I could be like the rest
All y'all fuckin tellin me ima be fine
But I know that I won't suicide is on my mind
I don't know what's going on anymore
I really wanna run
But I just wanna have fun
Pop pills with the guys
Just to feel fine
You can see it in my eyes
I really wanna die
I don't know how you didn't realize
All my pain from the start
Now I'm stuck up making art
Yeah
All y'all fuckin tellin me ima be fine
But I know that I won't suicide is on my mind
I don't know what's going on anymore
I really wanna run
But I just wanna have fun
Yeah