Lyrics them/xem - juxpls

I'm only trying to find out from my past experiences
How it led back to you and back to me
And how it led to almost everything

It's only the opposite
I'm all over the floor
And there's nothing stopping me to get out the door
And you reach for me
And I wish I went for someone
That was trying to put effort into putting time on me
When I was always putting time on them
I was always putting my time on, them

Don't you feel a little bit insecure
That you have to make it hurt
It hurts either way
Even if the pain isn't dealt
Then it'll get to you someway

Enjoy the rain a bit more
There's more to inform
Reach valid respect with my neglect
To feel more like an indent
Hurry, just a sip of coffee
So high that you feel enough
Caught with a smile, now it's gone
Sure it'll be saddening when I'm not
Press my buttons, not my heart
Grab for it, I'll have to restart

There's so much time that can handle my tears
There's only sympathy and relevancy to heal my heart
My mountains are climbed by you and only you
I only insist for you when you need it to get through
You only held me when you felt the need to
I know my struggles are walls that come up with no matter how long
I keep my eyes open just making sure
You don't leave when I'm far too gone