Lyrics If I Die Tomorrow - kalakarr

Subha ke teen ya phir char mujhe patai nai hai
Likhne ki koshish lekin likhne ko kuch bachai nai hai
Suicidal thought ceiling pe dikhta hai latka fanda
Jeene bhi chahta lekin karan kuch bhi bachai nai hai

I'mma a fuckin coward aur mein khudko he bas kosta hu
Firse mein sochta hu, kya mein khudpe bojh sa hu
Kaisa mein banda khudko he na jaanu tabhi
Kalam ko khuda mane khudko panno pe khojta hu

Dur jana chahu lekin soch se dur mein kaha jau
Afnui ghar ni molai aaja lagdaina afnui thau
I swear to God agar maa na hoti sochme toh phir
I, I would'nt be alive now

Save me from my self I don't wanna have a breakdown
Sabhi se naraz hu mein chhod aaya mera town
Doh minute khudse baatein mein karta hu
Dikhta hai mujhe mere andar ek saitan

Na jane mere hathoo me kyu na ye pal hai
Kalam se puchta hu kaisa mera kal hai
Khudse he expectation rakhna meine chhod diya
I don't even care mere sabar ka kya fal hai

Baba bhi bole yaha jeena hai toh thosh ban
Jali mile apne aur saache mile bahut kum
Agli bar sayad aashman pe mile hum
I'm sorry dad that, I haven't been a good son

Doh char log sunte thee sayad wohi gum sahenge
Aacha tha insaan, aacha likhta tha kahenge
Duniya badi zalim aur ye kehte thye ki
Nothing last forever lekin gane ye ammar rahenge

Subha ke teen ya phir char mujhe patai nai hai
Likhne ki koshish lekin likhne ko kuch bachai nai hai
Suicidal thought ceiling pe dikhta hai latka fanda
Jeene bhi chahta lekin karan kuch bhi bachai nai hai

I'm a fuckin coward aur mein khudko he bas kosta hu
Firse mein sochta hu, kya mein khudpe bojh sa hu
Kaisa mein banda khudko he na jaanu tabhi
Kalam ko khuda mane khudko panno pe khojta hu

Nakaab aaeene pe dikhta mujhe chehra na
Woh kehte sath rahenge par koi bhi thehra na
Dard ke mahol pe bhi haske hum likhte hai
Jaise me woh baap jisse rishta tera gehra na

Khush lagta hai utne bure din bhi kaate nai hai
Gaane ye pahuche waha jaha khud bhi jaate nai hai
Woh khudko kehte OG's aur mein inko kehta
Woh likhawat he kya jisme sach teri baatein nai hai

Sapna tha mera bhi bada hoke jana tha bahar
Maa ko dilau ghar baba ko ek lambi car
Kaisa ye soch mere aaj bhi mein sochta hu
If I Die Tomorrow jane kiske honge khande chaar

Likhte hue gum bade aake panne faad doh
Sunne wale kum mere sayad honge char doh
Aaj dono hath jode binti karna chahta tumhe
John bhale maree zinda rakhna kalakarr ko

Zinda rakhna Kalakarr ko ... .