Lyrics Lens of Truth - mfwaves

I swear everyday a lesson when you skipping summer classes
A mindset that's hard not to carry when I head off to work
How the fuck rent's due on the first
When I only get paid on the third
That's why I'd rather get paid by the eighth, can you blame me
Less bullshit talking, more big smoke flaming
Phenny shawty got me in her jaws like a cayman
Even though her big sis vico one I used to hit and quit
And of course I used to hit when I hit
My shit so numb feel like I'm fucking on air

I swear life's porno, no feeling, lights and the motion
Seen a lot of scenes but I ain't feeling no emotion
Banknote corners dry my eyes when I'm crying
And purple in the air got em red like the lens of truth
That's to say, I been looking past your fallacies
Shawty like my balance, cause she only wanna put me down
Shawty like some ballast, only wanna weigh me down
Shawty look like Alice guess I'm fucking tripping now
So I smoke heavy, head back, tryna line my mind up
Skim a seventh off the eighth and don't switch the price up
Broke boy math, only add to time and beef
So paranoid, eyes in the shadows on me
Pop and drink like I breathe, lowkey
Soul so cold, that there's ice on my feet
I get stoned every day of the week
Cause the God in my head wanna stone me
Said I paid for the pills but they own me
Phenned up, finna stutter step like a zombie

Scared of myself
Only talk about the side of my vices they see
Force my chest double wide for the air just to breathe
Eyes still staring at me, watching things that I've seen, hate the people I've been yeah
Peak of a bubble like I'm ready to pop
Triple double like the liq and phen before five o'clock
Sold my soul to the devil call me young warlock
When she tell me that she love me yeah it's all that I got
When she tell me that she love me, yeah I pray that it's fake, that it's fake
Wouldn't wish myself on no-one, no-one, stay home
Phen in my blood, in my brain
Act vain and I'll die in vain yeah
Yeah waves hoe, mister kill myself
Ferragamo belt match the bruise on my neck
Scared of the truth so the next line lies
Vampire shawty, yeah her fangs match the hole in my chest

Bets ain't wise, live life on the edge
Champagne sweet, but it rush to my head
Yeah I need shawty like a hole in my head
Like a rope round my neck
Like a dog need rabies
But she shine when the sun don't shine
And she truth when the whole world lie
But she ain't really mine
No she ain't really mine
No she ain't really mine, no

Brain pain in my room, tryna stop panicking
Phenny chewing on me I'm still thinking bout the Ativan
Calling up my homie, ask him what the fuck is happening
It's been a couple years, he says it's more like what happened since
Either I was heaven-sent or someone asked the DJ
I'm two thirds of a three-way, she in fake Bape and some kneepads
Shawty kinky wanna fuck me in a ski mask
Yeah I call that rob a pussy in a ski mask

Woke up five phen deep like a relapse, huh
Or I guess I gotta quit first
They tell me God hate quitters
And I hate quitting too
I'm addicted to you
Off the white, fuck the blue
On my knees pray to you
In my least favorite room
I'm in space when I move
My heart break think of you
All my lenses obscured
Won't abandon you, have faith

Woke up hungover and thought about changing
Flipped right back afternoon, same day
Dark thoughts drag on the floor like a drape
If I told you leave me lone, then you better say thanks
It'll really be fine, let me be the one to handle
I'm in love, but we live different ways
Scared my heart too numb for me to love you
And I'd lie about later but I'll always be the same
Yeah I'll always be the same
Yeah I'll always be the same
Yeah I'll always be the same
Yeah I'll always be the same