Lyrics Closed Casket - ohsobrkn

Honestly I′m too scared right now
Got a lot to do
I don't care right now
Yeah I′ve been the lid to the cup
How I bottle it all up
But I got a lot to share right now
I've been thinking that
Life might be better without me
I try to do better
But I always doubt me
I wanna be happy
My head won't allow me
Who put all this water inside of my room
Bruh I feel like drowning
I′ve been staying in my head too much
I′ve been in my bed
Feeling dead too much
Haven't had a good day
Its been two months
Man I′m losing motivation
And I cannot take this
It's way too much
Bro where is home?
Got friends
But I′m so alone
I know God's tryna call
I can hear the phone
But I′ve been hitting decline
And my heart is cold
God I'm sorry I've been gone
But I need you close
Oh yeah I′ve been tripping
I say that I′m a Christian
I say that I'm Godly
But acting so different
I′m needing repentance
Got lost in my living
I know that He's risen
It′s time that I listen
I've been afraid
Deep in the waves
Deep in my guilt
Now I′m feeling ashamed
I need some prayer
To heal all the pain
Fixing my heart
While He's breaking the chains

I'm alive
Breathing in a closed casket
Open eyes
In a never-ending blackness
Feel my dreams
Getting harder to imagine
I′m getting wooden splinters
From the coffin that I′m trapped in
And I don't wanna lose you
I′m not really feeling
Like I use to
God I need your light
In a world of a never-ending blackness
I'm alive
Breathing in a closed casket

I feel like I′m buried alive
I don't got nowhere to hide
I fill up my mental with lies
And all of the time
They tell me I′m fine
Or they just tell me to quit
Tell me I suck, and I start giving in
Rip all the pages I wrote with this pen
My doubt builds a casket
And throws me within
Running away from all the pain
I can never escape
No matter the pace
The place
I can never erase
Running circles around myself
But never winning the race
Instead running from my pain
I probably need to go pray
Why am I breathing
I feel like a demon
I know I'm alive
But I don't know the reason
I′ve been overthinking
And God you′ve been telling me
That you're enough
And I finally believe it

I′m alive
Breathing in a closed casket
Open eyes
In a never-ending blackness
Feel my dreams
Getting harder to imagine
I'm getting wooden splinters
From the coffin that I′m trapped in
And I don't wanna lose you
I′m not really feeling
Like I use to
God I need your light
In a world of a never-ending blackness
I'm alive
Breathing in a closed casket