Lyrics If I Don't Wake Up - outsideOUTSIDE

Break me open 'cause I have nothin' left
Stop pretending
Count my blessings 'cause this is all I have
Just forget me
Overwhelmed with these misconceptions
I can't forget everything you left with
Leave me here in my own hell, again
'Cause you're still in my head

I'm obssessin', this is depression
Why are you not here?
'Cause I've been missin' you and
Keepin' up with when it was easy to get your attention
This is useless, nothin's worth it
Misconceptions we never mentioned
I've been reckless, I'll admit that
You've been good and I never liked that
I've been spendin' too much time alone
I've been inchin' forward to jump off

Always hated when you were gone
Baby I'm a mess but so are you
Thought it was the drugs but we were wrong
Maybe I was better all

Break me open 'cause I have nothin' left
Stop pretending
Count my blessings 'cause this is all I have
Just forget me
Overwhelmed with these misconceptions
I can't forget everything you left with
Leave me here in my own hell, again
'Cause you're still in my head

Always hated when you were gone
Baby I'm a mess but so are you
Thought it was the drugs but we were wrong
Maybe I was better all alone

Same habits, yeah every day
Compensate with pill, is that okay?
Started with prescriptions, now it's too late
Overdose every damn single day
Maybe soon it'll be for real, yeah
Mama told it was always cool, yeah
Imagine that, judgement got me skewed, yeah
Substances have always been abusive

Break me open 'cause I have nothin' left
Stop pretending
Count my blessings 'cause this is all I have
Just forget me
Overwhelmed with these misconceptions
I can't forget everything you left with
Leave me here in my own hell, again
'Cause you're still in my head