Inside

Feel like I'm frozen in time
Force field back up don't touch what's mine
I find my channelling to focus on dismantling
But nothing but the battle rings through my ears
Wipe the rivers of tears and keep stepping on
Pretending I'm strong
Nah Mum nothing's wrong
I've got a lifelong song that's about to ring true
It's a time bomb long that demands I change tune
And my shines all gone and I'm dark in the mood
Parked deep in the gloom
Can find the light switch in this room
You're making me feel like a pirate
Pillage and plunder and torch fire it
Surrounded by bad men owning the horizon
Don't trust only yourself is the wisen
I'm only taking what's mine and sailing into the sunset
You have caverns of gold hidden away I'll bet
And when you admitted it was all your fault
I nodded not let a word escape the vault

Wake every day with a panic in my chest
As I take my first breath I feel that panic in my chest
Deep breath
I must not expect
More depth, more depth
To plunge I'm circumspect
Of all that is the future
Of all to come yet
Of all that is the past
It's showing in every step
Must I walk back
To walk forward check
I see myself all I see it red
I can't feel myself am I numb, empty or dead
I want him to make me feel better
I want him to make it all right
But it's a solo flight
My future is bright but that's also a solo flight
Fooled myself with every bite
So sweet I've blinded sight
My feet I've binded tight
I know I'm supposed to walk away
But I made all the plans to make you want to stay
Every day the fantasy grows
Everyday more cracks will show
That vulnerability you're wondering why I let flow
That's for connection
How I make sure I'll grow

I am my own hero
I am my own worst enemy
Don't cause conversation with me
You're hostile
Say you don't like my lifestyle
So I try to change my ways to make you stay
But I see all that was futile
I miss you but you were never here anyway
That's how it rolls when you're always working away
Told myself I could do it
But deep down I knew I couldn't
If you give me crumbs I know I wouldn't
So I bleed on it
Let that month go without your seed on it
You say stay out of the sun white chick
But I'm basking in it
I got the zinc and I'm masking in it
Getting excited
It's my finest attribute
Whether it's
Wow what a move
Or from the booze
Or did see that dude
Man that haircut's so rude
And I'm not changing my tune
If you don't want to listen
Keep walking til your feet's blistering
Yeah keep walking til your feet's blistering