Getting Older

Yeah, trust me
I fell down a wishing well
I fell for a wish from hell
Do it all before everyone else
Now I write my name alone in the waiting room
15 in fluorescent light
Pretty sure they can tell I'm high
And it seems like a blatant lie
That I'm sitting blank, don't know what to say
I don't wanna waste your time
I'm sure that I must seem fine
But these thoughts control my mind
I can't take another day where I
Cry your eyes out
Let your mother down
Let me know now
Am I just getting older?
I am, I am, I am, I am, I am
I am, I am, I am, I am, I am
Now it's ten years till it comes to light
And it's still the worst at night
'Cause I keep those memories mine
Fuck CBT and fuck all the meds I chew
My room was a sacred site
Doors closed, eyes shut, I'm fine
And this emptiness it's mine
I'm sitting numb, don't know what to say
I don't wanna waste your time
I'm sure that your friends were mine
But these thoughts control my mind
I can't take another day where I
Cry your eyes out
Let your mother down
Let me know now
Am I just getting older?
I am, I am, I am, I am, I am
I am, I am, I am, I am, I am
You say you know, but you never know
Why can't I try just to let it go?
I'm tied up tight cause the body knows
I'm still alone, alone in my bedroom
Nine to five I'm wired I relieve it all
Eyes shut, I cry, and my head explode
I hold out hope to forget it all
I'm stuck I'm holding on in the waiting room
Cry your eyes out
Let your mother down
Let me know now
Am I just getting older, I am
I am, I am, I am, I am-m-m
I am, I am, I am, I am-m-m