Relief

Pretend I can not just pretend
It don't hurt not speaking
Drinking every evening
Sleeping I have not been sleeping
Going off the deep end
I'm seeking relief from you

All this smoke ain't healing me all this drink ain't healing me
Wanna know if it's killing you as much as it's killing me
You had about six flags that shit was a thrill to me
I went and took a leap of faith things you do for Hillary
Miss you like I got bad aim in my head like a bad game
Would've took my jersey off just so you could wear my last name
You went and just cut me off like you had to get in that lane
I didn't even see it coming no signal or a hand wave
Wouldn't do you how you did me wouldn't leave you in pain
See that was my whole point you wouldn't let me explain
Tried to drive my point home that only drove me insane
Makes sense that you're a nurse cuz that point went in vain

Pretend I can not just pretend
It don't hurt not speaking
Drinking every evening
Sleeping I have not been sleeping
Going off the deep end
I'm seeking relief from you

You don't want us on bad terms but you weren't trynna bargain
Said you don't understand me I said girl that's just jargon
You went and strung me along I guess that's why I'm still harping
The girl that I used to know went missing now she on a carton
Off and on like strobe lights stayed on like the stove light
I'm the one that you would come see kept you warm on cold nights
Single girlfriends judging us what do they really know right
That decision made my heart drop felt like I lost a close fight
You went and got petty on me you started posting Josh wine
All these subtle reminders remind me that you're not mine
You got a whole lot of issues work on them when you got time
I never saw your real side you got eight of them like a stop sign
You threw a dog a bone went and made him a home
Thing about taking in dogs is you could've left him alone
I said thing about man fuck it I'm over this shit

You said you felt at peace when I hold you
My bed is huge when there's no you
Hope you didn't find someone to go home to
I thought it could have been so great with you
Tried to make amends now I pray for you lost faith in you
Now you're posting quotes that don't relate to you
You did a number on me like a dance routine
Let them walk on you tap danced on me took a stance on me
I just wanted you to take a chance on me

This time I'm a take time for me
This time I'm a take time for me
For me
For me
For me for me

This time I'm a take time for for me