Let Yourself Go

We identified and we just laid low
Maybe a little more than we wanted to know
And here we are now at the back of my place
Holding each other's hand and staring off into space

Yeah, there was something more that we wanted to hear
Like all the tests came back, and you were in the clear
You took it on the chin with a trembling smile
But your eyes, they spoke a million miles, oh

All of the memories now come flooding from the back of my head
And I'm waiting on you, waiting for you to explode, and whether I should go run or defend

Why did you, why did you, why did you leave it all up to me?
To clean up your mess, I'm better off, I guess
If there's a reason, boy, I can't see
Through all the walls of the maze
I do the best to get out, I can
Hold on, hold on, take this with you before you let yourself go

Well, we packed your bags, a whole trailer load
You held out long as you could, but it was time to let go
And now our bedroom looks like your old place
I'm sleeping on the couch and staring off into space

And there's an image now I will never forget
Your friends waving goodbye the day you left
They were balancing tears on the rims of their eyes
I never witnessed beauty so rare in my life

And all of the memories now come flooding from the back of my head
I'm waiting on you, waiting for you to explode, and whether I should go run or defend
But I can't choose 'cause you're not a threat anymore, you're just faded ash in the sand
So sick and tired of living the fight-or-flight
It's more than anyone could withstand
Set me free, set me free, set me free

Only you, only you, why did you leave it all up to me?
To clean up your messz, I'm better off, I guess
If there's a reason, boy, I can't see
Through all the walls of the maze
I do the best to get out, I can
Hold on, hold on, take this with you before you let yourself go
Take this with you before you let yourself go
Take this with you before you let yourself go

(I blame it on you)
(I blame it on you)

I blame it on you, I blame it on me
I blame it on these times of the rising seas
In the back of my head, back of my heart
Breaking me down to the very start
Yes, you gave us your best, you gave us your worst
Sometimes, loving you felt like a curse
All the shame that I thought, thought I'd shed
Thinking it'd be easier, if you were dead

Why did you, why did you, why did you leave it all up to me?
To clean up your mess, I'm better off, I guess
If there's a reason, boy, I can't see
Through all the walls of the maze
I do the best to get out, I can
Hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on