Ecstasy

I would be lying if I told you that i'm fine
Mixing these drugs with the liquor i'm going blind
Tell me why is true love so damn hard to find
I'm just a kid so why the hell do I wanna die

I gave you what was left of me and watched it go to waste
Now I drink myself to ecstasy and black out by mid day
You said we could still be friends But maybe I don't ever wanna watch you fall in love Again

I'm holding on to everything and maybe I should fucking quit
I'm an existential condescending piece of fucking shit
I keep rereading all of these fucking texts
Full of memories and shit I wish that I had never said
I don't wanna cry tonight
I don't wanna fight tonight
I just wanna get high tonight and have you right by my side
Used to see eye to eye yeah iris to iris
Used to be my bitch now the convos gone silent
You don't remember all of our highlights
You don't remember all of our finest times
You say that you hate me yeah you don't like me
Wanna see my dying I guess i'm suiciding

I would be lying if I told you that i'm fine
Mixing these drugs with the liquor i'm going blind
Tell me why is true love so damn hard to find
I'm just a kid so why the hell do I wanna die

I gave you what was left of me and watched it go to waste
Now I drink myself to ecstasy and black out by mid day
You said we could still be friends
But maybe I don't ever wanna watch you fall in love again
I gave you what was left of me and watched it go to waste
Now I drink myself to ecstasy and black out by mid day
You said we could still be friends But maybe I don't ever wanna watch you fall in love Again