Do We Party?

I feel i can not make the sense
To run down a hillside
When i can sit upon the fence
And see the grass from both sides

I find i can not comprehend
To swim in this ocean
Cause right now i have got a friend
Who's drowned in emotion

I feel i can not make the time
To party with prayer books
When i can pray at any time
And still be overlooked

I think i can feel it now
I'll part at death's door
So where can i go now?
That's a party with closed doors

So this time looks a good time
To take my time and think
Why this chance should be mine
Why me this time.