Paroles et traduction Ryke - 4am in Caloocan (Freestyle)

4am in Caloocan (Freestyle)

Naranasan mo na bang sumulat ng biglaan
Sabay record yung dahilan ay di mo malaman
Siguro'y may gusto lang akong ilabas
Ang hirap magpanggap na ika'y malakas
Akala ng iba ikaw ay masaya
Mukhang walang problema hindi ko lang pinahalata
Sabi nga nila, ito ay nasa nagdadala
Hirap na hirap na ko wala naman nag aalala
Minsan ay gusto ko nang lisanin ang mundo
Natatakot lang ako na kausapin ang sundo
Baka di payagang lumingon sa mga ala-ala
Para bang masaya kung nandito at buhay ka sana
Hangga't maaari ay ayoko po na bumitaw
Kilala akong tahimik pede ba kong sumigaw
Pag natuloy ba meron bang dadalaw o lilitaw
Kahit na madaan lang sana yung tipong naligaw
Ng maranasan ko ulit, kung pano ba mahalin
Namanhid na ko sa sakit, kahit ako'y sapakin
Ano nga bang pinaglalaban mo dito at alin
Ang pangarap mo ba o yung imahe mo sa salamin
Alin

Di ko ninais na humantong sa ganto
Nahihirapan din ako

Binenta ko si marlon para lang bilhin si loonie
Parang simple ba pero isipin mong mabuti
Hanggang saan ang kaya mong isakripisyo
Kaya mo bang ipaglaban ang pangarap mo hanggang sa nitso
O isa ka lang sa daan daan na nagdahilan
Wala daw pag-asa pero naghihintay ka ng ulan
Panay ang reklamo pero wala kang ginagawa
Di ka na nga nagkaron respeto pa sayo'y nawala
Oo meron pero wag kang umasa sa himala
Maniwala lalo sa sarili sabay tingala
Pasalamat sa taas kahit na mas madalas,
Ang kamalasan kesa pagpapala sanang binasbas
Sakin kaya akoy alanganin na manalangin
Napapagod lang pero naniniwala ama namin
Hinusgahan agad hindi pa alam ang hangarin
Talaga nga bang ganitong mga tao dito satin
Nagdadalawang isip kung dapat pa bang tahakin
Ang landas na pinili ko'y talaga bang para sakin
Nakaluhod kong lalakarin kahit na hindi kumain
Di matulog di maligo lahat yan inyong sumahin
Bumitaw sa relasyon kahit ang tagal na namin
Nakipagsagutan sa pamilya kahit palayasin
Kaya wag mo kong kwestyunin man o hamakin
Buhay ko ang tinaya ko para lang to mapasakin

Di ko ninais na humantong sa ganto
Nahihirapan din ako
Pero di ko kayang bumitaw
Kasi alam ko na gagawin mo
Kung ako ikaw

Ako ay lumuluha habang sinusulat to
Alam kong kinagulat niyo dapat ay binubuhat to
Problema kong pasan akin bang malalam-pasan
Hanggang dito na lang ba ako o kaya hanggang saan
Pasensya na hindi ko hangad ang manalo
Panalo na ko nang makita niyo ko sa entablado
Pasensya na hindi ko hangad ang manalo
Makilala lang ako ng bawat tao dito ay panalo na ko

4am in Caloocan (Freestyle)

Have you ever experienced writing abruptly,
Recording at the same time, the reason you don't know.
Maybe I just want to let something out,
It's hard to pretend that you're strong.
Others think you're happy,
It seems like there's no problem, I just didn't show it.
They say, it's all about how you carry it,
But I'm struggling, and no one seems to care.
Sometimes I just want to leave this world,
But I'm scared to talk to the reaper.
Maybe I won't be allowed to look back at the memories,
As if it would be better if you were here and alive.
As much as possible, I don't want to let go,
I'm known to be quiet, can I shout?
If I continue, will someone visit or appear,
Even if it's just someone who got lost,
To experience again, how to love.
I'm numb to the pain, even if you hit me,
What are you fighting for here and what,
Your dream or your reflection in the mirror,
Which one.

I never wanted it to come to this,
I'm struggling too.

I sold my Marlon just to buy Loonie,
It seems simple, but think about it carefully,
How far can you sacrifice,
Can you fight for your dream until the grave,
Or are you just one of the many who made excuses,
No hope, but you're waiting for the rain,
Always complaining but you're not doing anything,
You don't have any, respect for you is gone.
Yes, there is, but don't hope for a miracle,
Believe in yourself more, then look up,
Be grateful to the heavens, even if most of the time,
It's misfortune instead of blessings, I wish I was blessed,
That's why I'm hesitant to pray,
I'm just tired, but I believe, Our Father,
Judged immediately without even knowing the desire,
Are people really like this here with us,
Having second thoughts if I should still take this path,
Is the path I chose really meant for me,
I'll walk it on my knees, even if I don't eat,
Not sleeping, not showering, add it all up,
Let go of the relationship even though we've been together for so long,
Argued with family even if I get kicked out,
So don't question me or look down on me,
I put my life on the line just to have this.

I never wanted it to come to this,
I'm struggling too,
But I can't let go,
Because I know you'd do it,
If you were me.

I'm crying while writing this,
I know you're surprised, I should be carrying this,
The burden I carry, will I ever overcome it,
Is this where I end or how far can I go.
I'm sorry, I don't aim to win,
I've already won when you saw me on stage,
I'm sorry, I don't aim to win,
Just to be known by every person here is already a win for me.