paroles de chanson Conversations - Siple

Every night I lay awake talking to my demons
Wondering what I did, looking for a reason
Leaves change so I try and fight the seasons
Sleepless nights, endless fights, you would have thought that I was grieving

I do my best to remind myself that it could be worse
But all I seem to do is focus on things that cause me hurt
So I push people away knowing that they ain't coming back
In retrospect it wasn't what I wanted, I'm ok with that
So why I gotta be an asshole when they tryna help
Why I gotta act like I don't need them when I'm by myself
Why I gotta have these thoughts that push me to the edge
And when the night is over I just calmly put them back on the shelf
I'm trying to get myself together for I start to lose it
I try to think positive but my conscious is abusing
Of all that time I spend criticizing my every movement
Pin pointing every mistake I've been doing loudly in my head
To the point of turrets
To the point of no rest
To the point I make a dent in my bed, I digress
How can I handle all of this I'm only human
Wanting to escape before it's too late and I've reached the ruins

Every night I lay awake talking to my demons
Wondering what I did, looking for a reason
Leaves change so I try and fight the seasons
Sleepless nights, endless fights, you would have thought that I was grieving
Every night I lay awake talking to my demons
Wondering what I did, looking for a reason
Leaves change so I try and fight the seasons
Sleepless nights, endless fights, you would have thought that I was grieving

Since a little kid I heard these voice in my head
Telling me if I didn't do everything thing then I'd be dead
So I did what they told me knowing I'd have to sacrifice
Sleepless nights and endless fights wanting things to be right
As a kid I didn't know I was giving in
To this mental illness that my whole life I've been living with
Obsessively Compulsive actions that just don't make any sense
But in my mind I had to save my life at all expense
Til this day I'm followed by demons that know one knows about
Constant battle in my head that I just can't and won't let out
Frightened by the fact that people may see me differently
Even though they don't know me they will still be judging me
That is honestly why I like to choose to be alone
Constantly fighting a battle that no one really knows
Even through the concrete a beautiful flower has grown
Despite the circumstances it still kept all its hope

Every night I lay awake talking to my demons
Wondering what I did, looking for a reason
Leaves change so I try and fight the seasons
Sleepless nights, endless fights, you would have thought that I was grieving
Every night I lay awake talking to my demons
Wondering what I did, looking for a reason
Leaves change so I try and fight the seasons
Sleepless nights, endless fights, you would have thought that I was grieving