It's Been Awhile (Edit)

It's been awhile, since I could
Hold my head up high
And it's been awhile,
Since I first saw you.

And it's been awhile,
Since I could stand, on my own two feet again.
And it's been awhile.
Since I could call you.

And everything I can remember,
As fucked up as it all may seem.
The consequences that are rendered,
I've stretched myself beyond my means.

And it's been awhile,
Since I could say,
That I wasn't addicted and.

It's been awhile,
Since I could say I love myself as well as you.
And it's been awhile, since I've gone,
And fucked things up just like I always do.
And it's been awhile,
But all that shit seems to disappear when I'm with you.

And everything I can remember,
As fucked up as it all may seem.
The consequences that I've rendered.
I've gone and fucked things up again.
Yeah.

Why must I feel this way?
Just make this go away.
Just one more peaceful day.

And it's been awhile,
Since I could,
Look at myself straight.

And it's been awhile,
Since I said I'm sorry.

And it's been awhile,
Since I've seen the way,
The candles light your face.

And it's been awhile,
But I can still remember just the way you taste.

And everything I can remember,
As fucked up as it all may seem.
To be I know it's me.

I cannot blame this on my father.
He gave the best he could for me.

And it's been awhile,
Since I could,
Hold my head up high.

And it's been awhile,
Since I said I'm sorry.