paroles de chanson Jose Gabriel Gamboa - Tweaks

I'm in pain, I'm in a lot of pain
The baseline is pain but,
It's also like, gratitude

And knowing the fragility of everything

And the last time, when Kady and Omar did this
To themselves, I,

I can't remember that time

I think I, I remember just, I remember numbing it
I remember numbing it a lot

I think that's how I use to deal with pain
I use to just numb myself
I think that's how most people deal with it

But, this time I feel so present
I feel so present with the pain
It's like the most sobering pain I've felt in a long time

It's very sobering
Like, It brings me down to my body
It makes like, my vision crystal clear

It almost makes me feel a little superhuman
Because the pain is so intense that it makes everything around me
Like, makes everything around me feel so surreal
I feel like I have supervision
That I could like, see inside of myself

And the pain feels like it's restructuring my cells
Like it feels it's like, everything inside of me
Like all, all of my body parts and my organs
Are like, cracking and like, I'm like fleshy glass in there

You know? Fleshy glass
And everything's cracking and covered in blood
And mucous-y and just cracking and cracking
Cracking and I guess it's suppose to like, harm me?

But it doesn't
It's just, It's like a blowtorch in there
Like, it's just finding new ways to exist in there

It feels crazy