Paroles et traduction Utsu-P - まっしろな毒

まっしろな毒

おもちゃ箱にこもり続けて
周りの子はいつしかいなくなった
新しい日迎えたくなくて
眩しい嘘に目を細めてたんだ
無為に過ごす時間を撫でて
仕方がなく脈を打っているんだ
見よう見真似で覚えた毒
いつか意味が分かるのかな
一人二人と 大人ごっこしながら
今も生きている 当たり前のように
何もない何もない真っ白な私に
そっとクレヨンで色を塗りつぶそう
ふわりふわふわと理想が逃げ出す
今は遠ざけた現実が綺麗じゃなくてもいい
わけわからずこの世を学
ぶ優しい毒とか汚い薬とか
見よう見真似で覚えた道
置いて行かれないように歩こう
一人二人と 大人ごっこしながら
今も生きている当たり前のように
クレヨンを片手に時を撫でた僕ら
誰にも邪魔されず今も脈を打つ
何もない何もない真っ白な私は
どこに行ってもここに帰るだろうな
ふわりふわふわと生きて永らえて
昔遠ざけた現実が不格好に咲いた
ここから始まれ

Blank Poison

Remaining shut in my toy box,
The other children disappeared long ago.
Not wanting to face a new day,
I squinted my eyes at the dazzling lie.
Caressing the hours I spend uselessly,
I keep my pulse going because I have to.
The poison I learned by imitating,
Will its meaning become clear someday?
Playing make-believe with one person after another,
I'm still alive, as if it's a given.
In me, who has nothing, nothing at all,
Let me gently fill in the colors with a crayon.
My ideals float away, light and fluffy.
For now, it's okay if the reality I've kept at bay is imperfect.
Fumbling through this world's lessons,
Things like gentle poisons and filthy drugs,
The path I learned by imitating,
I'll walk it so I won't be left behind.
Playing make-believe with one person after another,
I'm still alive, as if it's a given.
We caressed time with crayons in hand,
Our pulses still beating, undisturbed by anyone.
In me, who has nothing, nothing at all,
Wherever I go, I'll probably come back here.
Living on, light and fluffy,
The reality I once kept at bay has bloomed awkwardly.
Let it start from here.