suicide notes

The void inside us all
I've reached a breaking point
Neurosis explores my body's joints
Petrified in awe of this nightmare
I cannot find a way to name
And I'm left in fear that no one will recognize the real me
I know, Lachrymose
Through a casting call of teeth
Underneath, My self worth depletes
A grin disguises the lie
Happiness is vague, Where's my salvation?
I don't know

Crippling anxiety, Psychosomatic delusions inside of me
An eternal detachment from this world I see
Addictions to the prescription drugs, I abhor
High and mighty metaphors take me away
It's all esoteric, My mental aesthetic
A lethargic depressing epidemic
Happiness is vague, Where's my salvation? U don't know
And everything takes a turn for the worst
The words, Incoherent, Sporadic, I'm dissapointed
These scars, worn and jaded, Codeine leaves me numb and faded
A disease I built with these trembling hands, Left crawling on the pavement
On the broken glass, Frozen in concern
Words bear no comfort, There's no letting go
Tired of somatic detachment, Never felt so low
Daggers across the skin, Poisoned with doubt
Noose round' my throat as my heads in the clouds

Amissis spiritum
Mors aeterna, My sweet disease
Mox contabescet corpus meum in terra
Et aerumna mea marcescet
Destrudo, Serva me

I know, lachrymose, Through a casting call of teeth
Underneath, My self worth depletes, A grin disguises the lie
Happiness is vague, where's my salvation?
I don't know
Happiness is vague, Where's my salvation, I don't know...
IDK
Life with this fate, The battle never ends
I don't know if I'll ever be okay
But Rome wasn't built in a day
Wasn't built in a day