Текст песни Ashamed - Phora

(I've gone insane)
(I never thought I could feel again)
(Just one more time, just one more night)
(I've gone insane)
(I never thought I could feel again)
(Just one more time, just one more night)

Yeah, look
Put my pain and my passion into these songs
Thought they loved me, they hated me all along
Is it true there's a place for us when we die?
Is it true they don't love you until you gone?
I never thought it would end this way
Hate that I hurt you with my mistakes
Can't help but think of you everyday
Please don't cry, wish I could wipe your tears away
It's so hard to deal with depression

Somebody I love used to be smiling
Now it's just a grave where he's resting
Like where did he go?
And if God is real then can you tell me his intentions
I'm calling my phone
I'm off of these drugs
But it's not the time for confessions
I can't let 'em know my obsessions
Tell the truth, I'm ashamed of myself
Tell the truth, I'm just too prideful

Or too ashamed of askin' someone for help
These days I just stay to myself
These days I just hide how I feel
These days all my thoughts are controlling me
Usually I just hide who I am
'Cause I miss who I was when I was the sober me
When I wake up, all my nightmares come to life
Fightin' with my demons all throughout the night
Say I'll be okay, they never really right
Mama please don't cry it makes it worse

Hope that one day you forgive me for the hurt
They say I should pray, it never really works
Mm
I know so many people they after me
They just wanna see me die, wanna damage me
Wanna tear me apart, wanna bandage me
Wanna take what I have, no they plannin' on breakin' me
Drownin' me, killing my fantasies
I can't do what the industry askin' me
I can't be who they say that I have to be

All that I really got is my family
I've been praying these demons they go away
I can never die selling my soul away
It's depression, I'm trynna let go today
Baby, tell me right now if you know a way
Devil knocked on my door I can't let him in
Realize all of these people were never friends
Mama you shouldn't cry 'cause I'll be okay
All my pain goes away with the medicine

(I'm goin' insane)
(I never thought I could feel again)
(Just one more time, just one more night)
(I've gone insane)
(I never thought I could feel again)
(Just one time, just one more night)