Malebolge

How many lies do you lie
Before your word comes true?
The pain of embarrassment ain't all that new
I've been through deeper don't give a fuck
Anything you can say about me old news
But maybe I'm bruised, maybe I'm hollow
Maybe I'll wake up one day
Wipe the grin off my face and swallow
All of the pain and self loathing depressing thoughts
I've collected in my mind
Stacked a pile a mile high
Everyday wasting my time
Wonderin' what my life would be
If i did this or did that
Or maybe something different from my past
Like that's a good use of my energy
Ha
Like rotting away in my bed
Gon' get me an e63
Another day of all this misery
I'll be like an ornament on a Christmas Tree
Fuck
Light a match, watch it all go up in flames
Burn it down, flush my ashes down the drain
Leave a note, and my body in the past
Let my soul leave this plane and fucking rest
But what if I don't, what if I wake up and stay
Stare in the mirror and face all my fears
Face all the hate take a deep breath
Enjoy the pain
Dragging my limbs through the fire
I just want to feel again, I'm always tired
I'm always numb
No matter what going on in my life
The only constant is pain
But what would I gain, from being happy anyway?
Nothing good come from the ecstasy
Only from misery
So I'll keep stacking this weight on my shoulders
Growing colder until the ice in my veins
Freeze my heart over
Until all I see is a tunnel of the light
Forcing my body to keep up the fight
No matter how dark there will always be light
So I'll grip the scythe
And I'll try my own insight
Fuck
Light a match, watch it all go up in flames
Burn it down, flush my ashes down the drain
Leave a note, and my body in the past
Let my soul leave this plane and fucking rest
How many lies do you lie
Before your word comes true?
The pain of embarrassment ain't all that new
I've been through deeper don't give a fuck
Anything you can say about me old news
But maybe I'm bruised, maybe I'm hollow
Maybe I'll wake up one day
Wipe the grin off my face and swallow
All of the pain and self loathing depressing thoughts
I've collected in my mind
But what if I don't?
What if I don't?
What if I don't?
What if I don't?