Prelude

This the prelude to the album
This is everything
If you can actually pay attention
Imma tell you everything
What do you want to know

Fuck it this liquor my medicine
Way that i feel about dude
I am better than
Maybe my feelings for you are irrelevant
Know that you harm me with news need corrective lens
My body hit sixty-seven a veteran,
Know that there's like sixty-two I'm regretting then
Maybe like two of which i feel were heaven sent
Maybe like three that were cool but I'm telling em
Never again or like maybe we do it another day
Know that we shouldn't but by the way
I have to block you as soon as i enter relationship
Since i expect her to do the same
I had to walk me a tunnel
My mind is a trap
And it feels like I'm stomping on puddles
Of that of which when it switch to a muggle
The ava cadeva the death of a struggle
But never know why i am built like this
Shit
Maybe my mind is intolerable
Maybe my crime diabolical
Cheat on the one that i love
That's impossible
See you don't know what it is like to be me
At the same time I say that for you
We speaking the truth
Seeking the youth
And peeping the streets as i grew
Bundy with women who love me
Ain't funny but humming Tchaikovsky
As i clean my room
Bet you ain't never know that shit about me
You see me out clubbing and think i'm a fool
See those around me and think
That because of the language we speak
We bad news
To be honest
Maybe it's true
But i can't hang with people like you
For the scenes that i seen i be rude
Mentally i think we be in tune
Set a meme and then send it for proof
Tag a team feel blessed cuz i grew
Be depressed try to get out my mood
Feelings press on my mind and my view
So i don't trust people for shit
And you tell me i should when i try i lose

So just tell me what is wrong
With me
Today
Cuz i can't seem to be healed
I'm born in pain
Anyone who tells me different i just push away
Now I'm sitting by my lonely
All i feel
Is shame

Rockstar
Maybe
Keep creeping on news for a baby
But look at me say that I'm crazy
A ring on her finger
Im hanging
A month ago i sent a tiktok
And she respond to me ovaries waiting
I should have took her on that
Offer to make her my wife
At the time was debating

Possibilities endless
Feelin tremendous
Working on fitness
And kill any nigga that slide in her mentions
Dont hop on my live
And ask me for my number thru dm
Cuz my girl gon kill you no witness
She fuckin crazy and i love when she clenches
Up early morning on her way to her business
When i was in Georgia i asked her for space Cuz she wanted like all my attention
I'm sorry i said to you
Honestly
Me backing off
Must have caused us some tension
And i know that we eight hundred and twenty-five miles apart
Should have gotten it's hard
But i miss using facetime for twenty-four hours
Watch shit with you and have no guard
Even tho we be far apart
We still found a way to go see each other
And you paid my way to go see you
When i ain't have money
And still i have not recovered
I wish that i coulda bought you
Some on Christmas
Cuz you don't even know that i cried
Like this girl is my light
The love of my life
But my ego pushed that aside
And i hurt her
And put her thru bullshit
Cuz i wasn't ready to take on the strife
I wish that I could take it all back
And move up and just live with you
Call you my wife
Took me to see where my dad is from
This racial bullshit is highly dumb
I fought for you
Told both my parents
If they ain't want black in their kid
Then forget I'm their son
Georgiana
Georgina
Right now i really can't remember
But i do think back
To buying you hot pot
And chick fil a thinking its standard
I shoulda did more
But i didn't and now that you're gone
i am on shit
Remember talking to your sister for hours
And seeing your family as this
Mine
Truly
I never had thoughts this would damage me
I hope you do everything that you want in life And make it to where you all plan to be
I hope they don't hate me
I know that I'm crazy
I hope one day that you can forgive me
I just want to thank you
For everything you did for me
From the love to simplicity
I'm sorry I'm mean to you when i get mad
I just hope that one day you can think of me
As better
As a father
As a husband
A dad
A Provider
Cuz right now I'm nothing
But i made a promise
That one day id get off my ass
I know that you gave me chances on chances But there's just one thing i must ask
Give me one more
This a letter to you out in public
Fuck their assumptions
I'm stuck and I'm running I'm changing i love it
I just wanna make you my
I just wanna make you my
I just wanna make you my
Fuck it