Can I Leave Yet?

Can I leave yet
Can I leave yet

Why would I bother to go making friends
When soon I'll be leaving and all this will end
Truth is, I needed a total reset
But what I received was a social recession
Then a depression
Then I suppress it
I wanna talk but I'm scared of rejection
Or worse yet, I think that I'm finally accepted
Then move and conclude it delusional connection
I learned my lesson
Gotta earn my friendship
I'm alone by principle
Cause I know that love's conditional
That's why I left all me exes
Cause I know real love is selfless
Like, why if I'm so zealous
Will they make no concessions
Am I not worth the effort
Am I not worth the stresses
Am I not worth the help or
Are you just hurt, defensive
So either I only make friends
With horribly damaged people
Or I'm the issue and statistically that is more feasible

Can I leave yet

Do you wanna be friends
No
Do you wanna be friends
No
Do you wanna be
No
Sorry for asking.

Keep my head up 'cause Momma says
Run the race and I'll find my friends
I know it's true that God has plans
But it's hard to see when I'm in the mess
Someone told me I'm mysterious
People wanna know me but I'm so removed
I said, homie you must be delirious
There would be a sign if that was true
There would be a hint
There would be a clue
But I'm serious that they do exclude
And I got the proof
Cause the person that said that blocked me and said it's destiny
Said it's best for me
Said if she didn't do it
I would be blocking her
I guess that we were never friends or anything
But I'll run on
Do my best to run strong
Do my best to come 'cross
As a guy that's caring, warm, of a soft heart
But that's the hard part
Opening up
After being hurt
With my heart guarded

Can I leave yet