Never Ready

A blessing is a blessing until it's a lesson
Stressing about how I'm gonna fix up this mess
And I met a devil and an angel at the same time
Recalibrated all of my insides
Checked them all one by one right down to the heart
Never knew that this shit could ever fall apart
Never rejected I just had a message expressing I wanted to restart
But you took it the wrong way
It was a matter of time
Before I hated myself and I had to end it
Then was the line, that you crossed
But across is attention, I have to mention it
I'm just so desperate at this point, I had me at gunpoint
Keeping myself here it's a mess
Degrading torture that I have getting this shit off my chest
The only thing that I can say now is that I'm sorry
Leaving you is more painful than the many scars I find on me
The only thing that I can say now is that I'm sorry
Leaving you is more painful than the many scars I find on me

I guess being petty
Shows that you were never ready
If I could see it then
I wouldn't have taken the opportunity

You're fucking bipolar I swear to god I can't take it
You say it ain't your fault, then why the hell are you faking
I can't believe that our relationship has come to this point
What you're doing has been ripping me apart from my joints
It's fucking pathetic I swear to god
That I just wanna end it and it tears at my heart
People are thinking that I'm gonna fuck up
By keeping you inside but
Damn it I don't think you know how to part
It's fucking pathetic I swear to god
That I just wanna end it and it tears at my heart
People are thinking that I'm gonna fuck up
By keeping you inside but
Damn it I don't think you know how to part
You say that you are over me, but you hit my line
Daily it's insanely stressful, give me plenty of time
This is all equally hard on me as it is on you
But I'd say I'm suffering more because of what I've been through
Everything that's going on in my head is not even from you
You contributed but actions that I made costed too
Much pain for me, if only you knew
Everything building up is ending my life too soon
But you don't give a fuck you just want me to suffer
Cause I had to lie and say I wasn't talking to her
Or them or him I had no freedom
Now I'm gone it wasn't easy, yeah it had to end
But shit, once I thought that it was finally over
You posted pictures to cover up that you were never sober
Now you're trying to make me jealous, I'm the one who left you
I guess a chance with me, wasn't the only thing that you blew
Damn

I guess being petty
Shows that you were never ready
If I could see it then
I wouldn't have taken the opportunity
I guess being petty
Shows that you were never ready
If I could see it then
I wouldn't have taken the opportunity
I guess being petty
Shows that you were never ready
If I could see it then
I wouldn't have taken the opportunity