disconnected

I Felt disconnected, so I cut off the plug
I'm still disconnected, so I scribbled with love
Not a riddle, I won't budge, I need to live it free
Cause it's been years with a grudge and a couple weeks
I'm my own
Biggest judge, nobody lives it neat
Im tryna find the throne, it's a must, will they really see
It's the enemies, who will pree, it's not the lost friends
Cause the real ones, yea I lost them, deal done and I amend
Real love no that's not pretend
I'm never following a trend
It turns in to wasted time that you spent
I'm always losing in the end
It's never me they recommend, I cannot breathe or comprehend it
The devil tryna take my soul but, I ain't gon' lend it
You a little Nelk boy tryna send it
5gs bitch i'm too connected
I hope you get the message
But bitch i didn't send shit
When she pull up on me i can feel her presence
I never had an adolescence
Cause I grew up pretending
I grew up neglected
Never respected
Fuck a ghost writer I'm self directed
Taking over cause your career been ended
Like snake virus in season and you're infected
Go to the ATM, like money collect it
Cause things have changed now, on a new page wow
Going at a faster pace, how
Cause I realized I won't live forever
The only thing I got on my vision is my vendetta
Im taking my family for granted, but we been through the weather
But my skin is scarred and charred, and its rough like leather
Don't think life is hard, or love is never
Don't let down your guard, or you get pulled like a pedal
I found that winner glitch
Ignited that inner itch
I found that winner glitch
I've been in a ditch, but now I'm out of it
I got them big stacks, a lot of it, no its not no counterfeit, look back and I'm proud of it, like
It came with bad health, I had to counter it, move stealth to bounce from the pricks
The lost individuals, I looked up to them
Guess the damage was residual, they out here doing all these rituals
Tryna get the pain gone
Focused everyday, trapping, tryna make the change long
Focused everyday, trapping tryna get the gains strong