Текст песни November - Azure Ray

So I'm waiting for this test to end,
So these lighter days can soon begin;
I'll be alone, but maybe more carefree,
Like a kite that floats so effortlessly;
I was afraid to be alone,
But now I'm scared that's how I like to be;
All these faces run the same,
How can there be so many personalities?
So many lifeless, empty hands,
So many hearts in great demand;
And now my sorrow seems so far away,
Until I'm taken by these bolts of pain;
But I turn them off, and tuck them away,
Until those rainy days that make them stay;
And then I'll cry so hard to these sad songs,
And the words still ring, once here, now gone;
And they echo through my head everyday,
And I don't think they'll ever go away;
Just like thinking of your childhood home,
But we can't go back, we're on our own;
Ohh. . .
But I'm about to give this one more shot,
And find it in myself, I'll find it in myself;
So we're speeding towards that time of year,
To the day that marks that you're not here;
And I think I'll want to be alone,
So please understand that I don't answer the phone;
I'll just sit and stare at my deep blue walls,
Until I can see nothing at all;
Only particles, some fast, some slow,
All my eyes can see is all I know;
Ohh. . .
But I'm about to give this one more shot,
And find it in myself, I'll find it in myself;
(Do, do, do, do-do-do) (x3)