Toxic

Coming fresh outta the Valley of Death
Tippy toes still sizzling from the hot coals under every step
Ice cold heart with a heavy head I steadily shed as my direction I correct
Toss out the print I got a new architect
Never my girl it was just my turn
Shes calculated and I respect it
Lesson learned
Stay cool and wrap the wound
Its not the first time Ive been burned
Gotta flip my goggles around and take a hard peak at my side of the street
Filters so heavy sometimes its hard to see if the grass is truly green
You know what I mean?
Go with my team and keep the circle tight
Stay away from sheep cuz most sheep are wolves in sheeps clothing looking for a bite
Mosquitoes ready to suck the life right out of good people
Then fly back to their hive with a fabricated story of false victimhood
This world is truly evil
This world is truly evil man
So go ahead and flip the script however you wish
Even your own parents know you like to spew some bullshit
Hopped off mine then right onto another dick
Slay queen
Thats sick
Its my own dumbass fault for wanting love marriage and kids
You just lie and manipulate to get whats hot in the moment
My friends calling me Neo now the way I dodged that bullet
But hey at least we can all see now your not just attracted to looks
Make sure to tell your new man that you just want him for his pocketbook
Stop it look truth is Im not even shook
Im just upset at myself that I even gave you a chance with all that time that it took
Time away from finding my true soulmate
And the funny thing as soon as you left I saw a lot of good change
All the things you were on my ass about tearing me down every day
At work I got a fat raise
Started taking a pill that makes me normal in every way
Trust me I know youre not thinking about me it was never real for you
Dont even know why you stayed
These days my energy is through the roof
Couldnt take a nap if I wanted to
I even quit drinking even though that was more of a problem for you
And I can tell thats still something that youre going through

I hope youre doing better
No offense
I really wish you the best
Just had to get this off of my chest

Youre toxic Im toxic everybodys toxic
Watch me talk sick on the beat though
Youre toxic Im toxic everybodys toxic
But I talk sick on the beat though

I saw the red flags early on but I chose love instead was I wrong?
Yes I was wrong but I loved you so much that was a hill I wouldve died on
My plan for us was to be lifelong
Put a ring on your finger make you a wife and a mom
The whole time you were looking for a back John to back up on
I even had a little bit of a savings for the engagement ring you told me you want
Your own son was calling me Dad and I was building that bond
I do get it and understand it but Im pissed off is why I'm making this song
I was even working on an album full of love bombs what a waste of time
You used me for whatever resources you could find then kicked me to the curb
How was I so blind?
Youre just burning hearts sucking life out of each situation
Then move on like life is nothing but a twisted vacation
Congratulations you took my soul and tried to smash it with your stiletto
Thank God Im resilient just too damn brilliant
I dont have tears to cry over you
They dont exist just like the love I assumed you had for us
But we all know what assumptions do
I shouldve never trusted you
I shouldve taken note about the way you interacted with customer service on our first few dates
Inside your heart you have a lot of deep seeded hate
Its your way of covering up some long lasting pain
And I know how its coming across these things that Im saying
But I needed to let loose
Been focussing so much on my own growth in my own lane
It was time to turn to my art
And say things that have been sitting heavy on my brain
Dang

And youll probably never hear this but if you do I hope it sticks cuz

Youre toxic Im toxic everybodys toxic
Watch me talk sick on the beat though
Youre toxic Im toxic everybodys toxic
But I talk sick on the beat though
Everybodys toxic