Mystery

Oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
Yeah, yeah, uh

Man, I've always had issues
Used to love myself, I don't wanna just call you, man, I miss you
We all have our problems, there's a lot of 'em
But all we can do is just continue (Yeah)
So how 'bout we continue? (Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
So as I got older, my problems
Least what I called them, only got worse
Emotions getting stronger, I steam
Them off now as I'm writing this verse
Feeling shattered and broken, all over feeling cursed
By myself, I wanted to leave, as escapin' got
Immersed in this life of firsts (In this life of)
Withdrawal of my life and it's crazy
I never saw myself hating (Saw myself hating)
I only saw myself as lacking the loving I was chasing
And the loving felt bolted (Bolted)
The loving felt like fury (Fury)
The loving felt like speaking (Speaking)
The loving yet unspoken (Spoken)
I felt the loving outrun me (Outrun me)
And my endurance while holy (My endurance while holy)
Felt like a tank nearing empty (Felt like a tank nearing empty)
Real close to feeling so hungry

I question, why am I bullied? (Bullied)
I question, why do they treat me (Treat me)
Like hell and why don't they see that I agree with you being you?
I agree with me being me

Well, I know why they didn't see this
'Cause I didn't treat you how I wanted my treatment to be
From you and I, honor myself
Who thought my hatred was helping, felt the dick that I was
Was a good thing, thought my pissy was good shit
Saw my bullies as major qualms
Thought my bully would quell it all
But my bully, I own that at times a bully I was

I knew that I was thin and skinny
I'd skip through grades, so I was smaller though
What helped me get through school
Was with my jiving with my friends
Which really stems from my exuding brilliance
Which people fed on like a cookie

It was breaking news though
On the down low, I was unofficial student teacher (Unofficial)
Bro called out my name with a, "Can you help me?" (Can you help me?)
I turned around and said, "Of course, homie
What you need?" (Homie, what you need?)
Bro said, "It's really the whole thing I'm not understanding"
I said, "Oh, I got you" and explained it like
Nothing, meaning easily conveying the subject's
Lessons with insights, anagrams and frameworks
For my bro as his temporary teacher (Yeah)
And honestly, it feels like no one knows what
It's like to be helping someone you love
Then another classmate calling your name
While you're helping another ask for help
Now it's me, both are watching like, "Who will he pick now?"
It's a push-pull-pull fight, it's
A bit of a conflict but never a debacle
I was lost and losing hope, I was drowning as I coped
I was yawning all alone, yet I was fostering my growth
I knew bridges would be crossed though
I saw bridges that had fallen
Then I stumbled there upon some bricks
Some cables, and my neural constructs

I gotta fucking work there, self-designated trade school
Superstructure building, union bonding in a vacuum
Hare and tortoise, slow and steady
How I want no one surprised
Except for those with expectations
They self-set upon me, hoping I believe 'em
I'd accept their viewpoint without me using my reason
It turned me critical, real shit, and it's quality
Then I saw that within me, no one wanted me

I was lost, I was broken, I was tainted, I was faded
I was knocked out fucking cold 'cause I was boxed and I was loaded
I was fighting young and hopeless as I
Called my own self shit in the grossest
I was crying my numbness to sleep as I
Feel again what it felt like to be stuck with the moment
The age of eight to eighteen, man, how many oceans
Tears fell, tears fell, you ever felt the sting of some?
Real, really felt, innocent, a little kid

Smart and sharp and ringing bells, treated as a grown-up
Honoring it all 'cause I respect the boy who fell
I respect the boy who dreamt of self-colliding with cement
I respect the boy who went to school right after what he dreamt
I respect the boy who knew he'd be a man while feeling ready
I respect the man reflecting on the boy he once was
I respect the man who's letting out this man's emotions
I respect the man expressing thoughts suave with paint brushes
I respect the man who says, "I love you" to his past self

I fucking accept me, better yet, and I respect me (And I respect me)
All to say respect here, I respect you
And respect me (Here, I respect you)
I use vulgar emphasizing meanings for their getting (Getting)
And if others don't get me, humbly ignore this message

I love my people and the paths that I've carved with them
Oh, I love their reasonings that I would myself not draw up
And I love their goodness they convey even with mystery
My love is loving of the grandest, by the way, it's nice to meet you
Hi, my name is mystery
Hi, my name is mystery