I Admit It

You really got me trippin
I followed my heart instead of my head, why didn't I listen?
I still be tryna find love when my heart still need some fixin
I knew better, but I couldn't figure out your intentions
I admit it, I ain't really care, cause I just wanted attention
I admit it, I fell in love with you with every sentence
I admit it
You got me trippin

I thought it was love, but it really was hurt
You wanted me last, but I wanted you first
My mama been mad, I stopped going to church
Lord can you forgive me, I'm really just hurt
I'm new to these feelings, I don't know how they work
Took a good look inside, I started to search
Started looking at you, like is this really what's worth?

Tired of being tired, I think that's how I'm wired
Girls who don't love me back, I think I just admire
I be praying cause the devil working hard inside my mind
And I really wanna kill myself, but I know it's not my time
And I really think it's selfish if I leave my mama crying
Asking"Lord why, why you take my son, why?"

That's some really deep shit, but that's what I got inside my mind
People really don't know this the late night shit that got me crying

Realized people only care when you shine
Realized people only care when you got diamonds
Fuck it, you ain't one of mine
Fuck it

I'd rather be lonely and stay silent
This love shit really politics, give a fuck about Joe Biden
Girl I really like you, don't give a fuck about your body
I genuinely care, why the fuck you keep posting your body?

You must wanna die young, give a fuck about no Roddy
I should've been fucking with other bitches, I'm not sorry
But I also know it'll be a whole lot of red like Playboi Carti
Fuck it