Going Crazy

I know life a long road
And one day I'll pay the death toll
I just hope before then I make it through the threshold
And stack enough paper so my babies get fresh clothes
The first day of school
Cause growing up we didn't get those
Me and slim was sipping syrup like we had strep throat
Did a lot of drugs before we even knew the threat posed
Member hearing Brodie OD'd off the Exo's
Cut with something extra but his plug never said so
Damn as I'm growing older it's become clear
Life gon be unfair
But everyone gets some share of pain with it
Still talking about the struggle
Cause I still remain in it
Wonder why I'm coming round
Tripping need a plane ticket
Seen shit switched so fast
I know most of my closest friendships won't last
Done killed so many rappers
I could print toe tags
But this just something to relate to when shit goes bad
Used to want the baddest bitches with the big ol'ass
'til I took a wild ride with one and just'bout crash
Know you thought I'd be the nigga to extend your laugh
But every chick I ever gave shit went more mad
When this drop they gon'be like bro you in your bag
But I ain't never left it
Spent a whole year inside my own head
Second guessing
Trying to make the best impression
Now I feel effervescent
Never will my effort lessen
This year I'm record setting
This year I'm resurrecting
My career from the place where everybody said I left it
Had to take some time off the net
It had my head infested
Always been the type that felt better
When I'm less connected
This year I won't be lazy you ain't gotta motivate me
Wishing I could always the confidence I'm showing lately
I don't care what niggas think
Cause I already overrate me
Gotta be delusional to make it and I'm going crazy
I'm going crazy
I've been going crazy
Gotta be delusional to make it and I'm going crazy
Lately life been giving me the least like a landlord
Used to only dream about succeeding now I plan for it
It ain't just for me I really need it for my fam more
My brothers still up in construction
Work until his hands sore so I ain't finna go flex
Show up wearing a Rolex
Till I know I got enough bread to get us both blessed
Let him walk in the store and pick it like a protest
When I said I got you bro I did it with my whole chest
Shorty told me first time we link we having no sex
After one glass of Moet
She more wet than she ever been before I told her
Don't forget I would never do you wrong
When you don't know best
All I know is protect all I know is provide
Professing my emotions over beats until my soul cries
Ever since bro died been switching up my whole vibe
Searching for assistance like I'm roadside
Always getting lifted
Cause when I'm sober I nose dive into the ground
Just need a plug that can front me unlimited pounds
Won't be no errors in the era I'm entering now
Cause when you at your Pinnacle
Ain't no pinning you down
This year I won't be lazy you ain't gotta motivate me
Wishing I could always have the confidence
I'm showing lately
Don't care what niggas think
Cause I already overrate me
Gotta be delusional to make it and I'm going crazy