Jade (2021 Edit)

Face black
Another shadow of innocence takes a
Take back
All the lights and glitter
Wrong track

Again and again it stings
I wish you all could feel like this
Twelve
Is for the reason of regret
Nine
Is for the pain that I've caused
Will

The strife ever cease to someday
Fuck this mind that has made to hate

Complete the task of humility
Restrain from who they want me to be
That's what they want me to be
That is not quite good enough for me
Fuck you and your thoughts on me
Fuck you and your thoughts of me
Fuck you, how can I not be me?
Fuck you, I will never let you take me

I will never be

That good little one

I could never see
What is so good about life
I could never change
Just who I am
Just what it is I think I am doing
My hands fell down
Now I know I failed
You were not there to pick up
The waste of this pathetic tale

Maybe I should just end all this right here
Would you like that?
Would you like that?
Maybe you could come
Knowing that you all have succeeded
I am staying here to betray all of you
I am staying here to betray all of you
Never failing me again
Never failing me again
Never fail

I cut a little
It bleeds slowly
I cut a little

It bleeds slowly
I cut a little
It bleeds slowly
It bleeds slowly, can't you see it?
I cut a little

It bleeds slowly
I cut a little
It bleeds slowly
I cut a little
It bleeds slowly
It bleeds slowly, can't you see it?

I'm going to save me
I'm going to save me
I'm going to save me
I'm going to save me
My eyes turn the color jade
My eyes turn the color jade
My eyes turn the color jade

My eyes turn the color jadeI look at everyone around me

I am so sick of this place
Anyone and anything makes me sick

I just want to end it all
I return to my room
The walls white with black shades
The faces are not for your ears
The feelings are not for your heart
I struggle in tears
I'm daydreaming
But can I find a way out besides this?
I need it
I want to be where you are

I miss you