Let Go

A rapper with lots of doubt, I know it's sorta blasphemous
But I don't know too many others who feel like they're accidents
I swear I find it really hard for me to brag a bit
I feel more inside my element when I feel like vanishing
Maybe they can't relate, maybe they scared of it
I wonder if I'll see the day when I'm heard from the dash and shit
Unhappy tries to hide from me, I know it's adjectives

I know all the other ways it creeps in where my passion lives
My damn aggression, it's always been a passive kid
Flipping out when progress ain't apparent, and it's damaging

Headphones blasting was the only thing to manage it
Though I know some things only feel a way 'cause I'm attached to them
I've tried masking it, many lies I've dabbled in
I've tried to laugh a bit, but that shit should be effortless

I've tried everything I can to keep my candle lit
But you can only get so far living like a half-a-wit

Can't tell you where these scars go
Can't tell you anything about life or tomorrow
If there's something I'm admitting is I can be a hypocrite
But I'll never be someone who hid it in
All I could do is learn to let go
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
All I could do is learn to let go
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh

I'm secretive to a fault, I'm not used to people caring

On the outside, it's looking like I'm fearless

But you can never judge a battle on current appearance
And don't even get me started on one-sided endearment
'Cause I'm random with my thoughts, I see all sides
Possibly it's my Libra scale, possibly my mind

But when homie tries to change the world between his stripper's thighs

Then of course the world is out of whack, that's not even his wife
And every other chick is claiming single like it's martyrdom
Afraid of being real, but claim love is what you're starving from

You say all men are sharks, all of them are carnivores
If he just wants to ride, then why you give him carnival?
I can't apologize, I'm just being honest
Do you care about the world, or is disaster just your market?
'Cause you'll only advertise change if your name is on it
Motherfucker, you should reassess what you truly wanted
Can I tell you 'bout the way that I'm dealing inside?
How it's getting kinda hard to keep feeling inspired

'Cause I've heard about your millions like millions of times

But somebody that I love got pills in his mind

Don't mean to bring you down, just had to let him know
That someone cared about him way before he was a ghost
Maybe making it will give me more reasons to boast
Lord knows I need a reason to keep this and go

See, that's what they mean, D, I know I'm too loud

Part of me, I'm still learning to dumben it down
I just never been the type to stumble in crowds

Since that's the fastest way to crumble a smile
I really don't know a lot, I don't have an answer
Maybe I just need a good girl and some laughter
But nowadays people don't talk, we just banners
You judge somebody new by somebody old's patterns